Dave Larson
watched his son and daughter, Tim and Jessie, join the crowd of other high
schoolers as they made their way up the steps to the entrance of Long Lake High
School. Tim was a senior this year, Jessie two years younger, in tenth grade.
He had a deep love and affection for them both. Tim, tall and lanky, was a
wearer of glasses and a science geek; a dedicated student. Jessie, short and muscular,
was an up and coming second line center on the girls hockey team; a natural
athlete. They were both great kids and he grinned as he beeped his horn
goodbye. They each waved over their shoulders without looking back and then
disappeared through the front door of the 1970's brick building. Dave smiled
and gave them a wave in return, although he knew they couldn't see him. He was
a polite man and it felt like the right thing to do. Then he checked the clock
on the dash panel of his six year old Ford Fiesta. It was 7:49 am.
He put his left hand up to shield
his eyes from the October sun, low on the horizon, just peeking over the trees.
He thought about putting his old sunglasses on, but remembered that the arm had
fallen off yesterday rendering them useless. He made a mental note to get a new
pair sometime soon.
An image of his wife Karen popped into
his mind. She was the same age as him, fifty-one, and had short, blond hair, mostly
gone to gray. She was five-two, stout, with the strong arms of her Swedish
ancestors. She'd left early in the morning for her job in Wayzata, just seven
miles away, where she was a dental technician and was needed for 7:30 am root
channel with Dr. England. She'd kissed him on the cheek goodbye while he and
the kids were still having breakfast: cheerios for him, toast for Tim and some
kind of granola for Jessie. His wife's image made him feel good inside. They'd
been married for twenty-nine years. They had a solid marriage, Dave thought. He
was happy with her. She was happy with him(he was pretty sure.) In fact, he had
a good life: a good job, good home, good family. Just then a school bus roared
by on the left, inches from his window. Other parents dropping off their kids beeped
their horns goodbye. A bunch of students late for the beginning of class ran down
the sidewalk on his right. Karen's image faded and then was gone.
Dave sighed and checked the clock
again. 7:53 am. It was a normal a day for him, as normal as normal could be;
just like every other Wednesday in the last, what? Month? Year? Decade? He
didn't know. Truth be told, they were all starting to run together.
He shifted his rear end in the seat.
Why was he wasting time sitting in front of his son and daughter's high school mulling
over his life? He should get a move on. He should leave the school grounds and
take the service road out to the street that lead to the county road where the
stoplight was. Then he should take a left and point himself east. He should
drive the nineteen point seven miles into downtown Minneapolis to his job at
Heartland Controls, the company he'd worked at for the last twenty-six years. He'd
recently been promoted to product supervisor in the solid state division, a mid-level
management position, and he needed to show his immediate boss he was worthy of
the job. He was fifty-one years old for Pete's sake, and he should quit
procrastinating. He had a meeting with his design team at 10 am and lots of
emails to catch up on. He had a presentation to prepare for on Friday to update
his boss, Charlie Langston, on a new energy saving set-back thermostat his team
was working on. He had responsibilities and he should just get to it.
Dave sighed again and put his car in
gear. He checked over his shoulder to make sure it was safe, put his turn
signal light on, pulled away from the curb and drove away from the high school.
At the corner, he signaled again and took a right onto the service road and
began the drive that would him a few blocks out to the stoplight at the county
road. Once there he'd turn left, drive a few miles and hook up with the highway
that would take him into Minneapolis and he would go to work. Just like every
other day.
He watched the speedometer as he
drove along the service road and kept it to a steady twenty-eight miles per
hour in the thirty mile per hour zone. To the left the sun was inching higher
above the trees. The sky was pure blue and cloudless, the temperature in the
low fifties. It looked like it was going to be a gorgeous fall day. Dave
settled into his seat and sighed again. Too bad he had to go to work.
On the way to the county road he decided
turn on the radio and listen to some music. His preferred choice was channel 89.9
FM, a station dedicated to playing the best classical music in the upper
Midwest. Given how he was feeling at the moment, something like a little Chopin
would be a nice shot in the arm, something to quell his melancholy mood.
Somehow, though, when he punched the
ON button, the call letters for the area's mega-huge, classic rock station came
up and Bam! Just like that, the little car was suddenly filled with the
thumping, pounding, rhythmic beat of drums and bass guitar. BOOM, DADA, BOOM, DADA,
BOOM...Dave flinched. He was used to the quiet serenity of a Mozart piano
concertos or the melodic orchestration of a Beethoven symphony. Not this. Not
the wild, relentless beat of rowdy, unruly, rock and roll. No sir, not on your
life. The noise actually made him feel queasy and he could feel perspiration
forming on his forehead. He had been a classical music fan for over twenty
years. He liked the soft sounds of the strings, woodwinds and orchestra. He
like the peaceful, mellow, feeling it gave him. Mozart or Chopin or Beethoven,
even Sibelius, it was all good. The music soothed and relaxed him, sometimes
even making him a little sleepy, like a narcotic. Not like the noise now
emanating from the Fords tiny speakers, filling the car with that hard,
driving, rock and roll. It was grating it. It was dissonant. In fact, it was kind
of irritating.
He was reaching to quickly change
channels when something stopped him. There was something about the song now playing
that was familiar, something he thought he recognized. Dave liked challenges.
He liked quizzes. He liked to try to figure things out, so he paused and
listened. The song...what was the name of it again? He let the melody line run
through his brain some more, trying to recall where he'd heard it before. A
little test, he told himself. A little test to check how good his memory was. He
thought about it for a few seconds before the answer finally came to him. Dave
grinned and gave himself an imaginary grade of an A. It was a song from back
when he was younger. Back when he was in what? High school? Junior high school?
College? He fiddled with the volume, turning it down a little, and listened
more carefully. Surprisingly, he found the more he listened, he more he realized
that he kind of liked the song. He liked the way the drummer pounded the drums
so they echoed deep and resonant, like a distance thunderstorm rumbling. He
like the way the bass line ran up and down underneath the melody, making him
want to tap his fingers along with the beat. Together, the drums and bass sounded
kind of...what? Pleasing? No. Well, sort of but not quite. He thought some
more. Primitive? Yeah, that's what it was like, primitive; like the native
sounds (he imaged) from the jungle way back when in prehistoric times. Sexy,
even, the more he thought about it. (And then immediately felt guilty for
thinking, for him, such an unconventional thought.) But the fact of the matter
was this: The more he listened, the more he found he was liking what he was
hearing.
Then he suddenly felt guilty again.
Maybe he was liking it just a little bit more than he should have. He was a
classical music fan, after all, not a rock and roller. That's enough, he
thought to himself. No more thinking like that.
He was just about to switch to his
classical station when he the singer started in. It was then he recognized the
that the name of the song was Molly Hatchet's famous 'Flirtin With Disaster'. Suddenly
images came came flooding back to him; a tidal wave of memories, most of which
were pleasant. It was a song from 1979, back when he was thirteen and in junior
high school in Minneapolis. He was a science geek back then (just like his son
now.) He and his friends had built a rocket in his parents basement just for
fun; for the challenge of it. In school, he liked math. He liked science. He
liked knowing that he could combine the two disciplines and make something
tangible, in this case a thirty-one inch tall rocket that he hoped would work.
It did. He and his friends shot it off out in the country west of Minneapolis
and it had traveled nearly half a mile straight up before exploding. How cool
was that?
By now Dave had driven to the
highway and was stopped at the signal waiting for the light to change. He
didn't switch the station. Instead he kept listening to the song, thinking back
to when he and his friends had built that rocket. Those were good times back
then, great times, even. He smiled reliving the memory. The music seemed to
touch something deep inside him, something that had been dormant for a long,
long, time. He remembered how he and Eddie and Ron and Steve used to listen to rock
and roll down in his parent's basement when they'd talk about science stuff and
math stuff. Even girls. Right now, the song brought all of that back to him; he
found himself liking the driving force of the music and the power of the
guitars. He liked the way the guy sang, with his deep voice, scarred (Dave was
sure) by bourbon whiskey and non-filtered cigarettes. He liked the memories the
song rekindled. He liked that the song made him smile, made him happy.
Right then and there, while waiting
at the stoplight and listening to 'Flirtin' With Disaster,' Dave suddenly made
a snap decision. Instead of turning left and heading east through Long Lake and
getting on the crowded highway that would take him to work in Minneapolis, he
flipped the turn signal the other way and waited. When the light changed, he
turned right, to the west. He started driving away from town, away from his job,
away from his kids, away from his wife and away from his home. As he drove, he
turned up the volume and the classic rock music of Molly Hatchet filled the
inside of the little Fiesta. 'I'm travelin' down the road, I'm flirtin' with
disaster'. That's what Dave was going to do. He was going to take a break from
his life. He was going to travel down the road. He didn't want to flirt with
disaster, necessarily, he just wanted to take a chance and see what there was
to see.
At least for today.
In his whole life, Dave was never
one to consider himself as a rock and roll outlaw. Or even a rebel, for that
matter. In high school in a well to do suburb of Minneapolis he was an A minus
B plus student whose greatest claim to fame was third place for a perpetual
motion machine he built for his senior year science project. The only girl he
ever dated was Karen, who eventually agreed to marry him after they had both
graduated from college when the guy she was engaged to 'dumped her' as she put
it, for a former City of Lakes beauty pageant queen. Dave readily agreed.
They found jobs they both liked.
They moved to Long Lake and bought a nice little bungalow and so Karen could be
close to her parents. They had Tim and Jessie. Life was the way it was supposed
to be - quiet, stable and predictable.
But now...now this. Now this sudden
desire to break the mold that formed his uneventful life. To step out and do
something completely unexpected. Something different. Was he nervous? Yes. Yes,
he was. But he forced his nervousness aside and concentrated on the here and
now. Somehow this morning he had been struck by a sudden and unexpected need to
let himself know he wasn't stuck in a rut and trapped in the confines of the
life he'd chosen to live. He needed to do something different than what he'd
been doing every day of his life for he didn't know how long.
As he drove, Dave had a talk with
himself. He asked, 'I'm a responsible man, aren't I?' The answer: 'Yes. Yes, I
am. Just ask Karen. She'd say that I'm as responsible as the day is long, and
then some.' Next, he asked, 'People can count on me to be stable and reliable,
right?' The answer: 'Yes. Just ask...Well, just ask anyone. Stable could easily
be my middle name (not Norman').
So there. He deserved to do this.
Even though it was unexpected behavior on his part, maybe he deserved to break
out and do something out of the ordinary. Something completely unexpected.
Something no one expected him to do.
Dave checked the rearview mirror. He
was near the western outskirts of Long Lake and excitement was replacing his
nervousness. He was really doing this. He was really heading away from his job
and his home. The question came to him: Why? Why was he doing this? Well, to be
honest, he didn't know. All he knew was that this morning, this beautiful October
fall morning, something had grabbed at his very soul and taken over, compelling
him to do the unexpected. Was it the music that had fueled the change? Maybe.
Probably. And if it had, the fact of the matter was that he had listened and
he'd given in. He needed to know he could be more than just a reliable husband,
father and employee. He needed to do what the song suggested. He needed hit the
road and be free.
As Dave headed west, 'Travelin' Man'
by the Allman Brothers came on. Dave turned up the volume so the music was
pounding through the speakers. He felt a surge of adrenaline roar through his
veins. He'd never done anything remotely spontaneous like this before in his whole
life. Ever. He was nervous, but excited. He sped up and made it through the
last stoplight in town just as the light changed from to yellow for caution to
red for stop. Caution? thought Dave. Not today. Stop? No way. Today I'm my own
man. Nervous as he was, he liked the feeling.
He accelerated and made himself not
look in the rear view mirror. Ahead lay corn rows and soybean fields. Farm
houses and pasture land dotted here and there with wood lots. Wide open spaces.
The open road. He could drive all the way to Montana if he wanted. For now,
though, he'd go to Delano. He checked the clock. It read 8:16 am. The little
town was only fifteen miles and maybe a twenty minute drive away. He could make
it easy. He'd better. His bladder was full and aching and he suddenly had the
pressing need to find a gas station and make a pit stop. He wanted to hurry. He
wanted to put the gas pedal to the floor and break the speed limit if he had to
and there as fast as possible, but he held himself back, conscious of
maintaining the fifty-five mile per hour speed limit. After all, he didn't need
a ticket. He'd never had one in his life and he certainly didn't need one now. He'd
get there eventually. Hopefully, in time.
He fiddled with the volume on the
radio, getting it set just right and hummed along to 'Dirty Deeds Done Dirt
Cheap.' The song helped take his mind off his need to get to a gas station, but
just barely. He checked the time again. 8:19 am. He pushed the accelerator down
just a little bit more.
Clive Culpepper
had been working at the Delano Quik-Stop for three and a half years, the last
four months of which he'd been manager on the 6 am to 2 pm shift. It was 8:35
am that Wednesday morning, and he was behind the counter, watching the steady
stream of traffic on highway 12 - most of it late commuters heading to work
forty miles east in the twin cities. He was, as the saying went, 'Looking but
not really seeing.' Instead, he was worried. His wife, Carrie, was expecting
their first child any day now and she'd told him at 5:30 am that morning on his
way out the door that she wasn't feeling the best.
In fact, her very words were,
"I feel like shit, man. Like someone put a huge watermelon inside me and
then crammed me in a barrel and dropped me down an empty grain elevator."
That didn't sound good. Immediately
concerned, Clive hurried to her side and said, problem solver he always tried
to be, "You know I'd stay if I could, but I've got to get the station
open. Can Susie come over and be with you?"
"That bitch couldn't be
bothered to help me even if I paid her," Carrie had spat out."She's
hanging with Kimo and that crew of jerks, and all she can think about is getting
stoned and getting laid." She paused and took a big swallow out of the
glass of milk she was drinking, "So, no, Clive, I won't be calling my dear
little sister. The lazy little skank."
Okay, then, message received, Clive
thought to himself and hurried to change the subject, "Well, you just rest
then, honey. I've got to get to work, but I'll keep my phone handy. Call if you
need me. Okay?"
Carrie was sitting at the cluttered card
table they used for eating, paying bills, folding laundry and nearly every
other task that required a flat surface. She looked out the window of the narrow,
single wide that they could just barely afford payments on and said, "I'll
do that, Mr. Manager Man. Just make sure I can reach you." She turned and
offered him the faintest of smiles. Her blond hair was an oily, stringy mess,
in need of a wash. Her blue eyes were bloodshot from lack of sleep, and the
extra fifty-five pounds she'd put on in addition to the baby she was carrying were
bursting out of her faded pink sweat pants. "I count on you, you
know."
God, how much he adored her. She was
the love of his life. He knelt down to be close to her and put his arm around
her, "No problem, babe," Clive smiled at her, "I've got your
back. You know that. Always." He rubbed her shoulder affectionately, then
kissed the side of her face, holding his breath and trying not to breathe the
oily fumes emanating from not only her head, but the rest of her body.
"You'd better," Carrie
told him, squeezing his hand before taking another gulp of milk. Then she and
let loose a long, loose, belch. "You know I count on you." She gave
him another thin smile and released his hand before going back to looking
outside.
Clive stood up and went to the
kitchen counter. He grabbed his lunch bucket and checked his appearance in the
mirror on the side of the corner cupboard. He was just under six feet with a
thin, wiry, build. He had short, neatly combed brown hair and a wisp of a
mustache (that Carrie liked.) He had brooding, dark brown eyes under thick
eyebrows that gave him the look of a poet or a clergyman, neither of which he'd
cop to. (He'd rather be considered a mechanic - he loved working on cars.) He
had a tattoo of a heart with a capital C in the middle on his left bicep.(For
Carrie, of course.) For work he always wore a uniform of neatly pressed gray
pants and a crisp, gray, long sleeve shirt with the sleeves rolled down and
buttoned, with his name in red stitched above the left breast pocket. He made
sure his black work boots were always clean and polished. If he wore a hat,
it'd be his blue baseball hat with FORD in red letters proudly displayed on the
crown. In short, he subscribed to the adage: If you look good, you'll be good.
And that's what he wanted: To do good work and have a good family. He was
nearly there. He was twenty-six, Carrie was twenty-four. They'd been happily
married for three years. All he wanted from of his life was right here in their
modular home set on the outskirts of Delano in the Riverside Estates trailer
park only a fifty yards from the Crow River. Having their first child would
make their life just that much better; perfect, even. He couldn't wait.
Clive turned and said good-bye to
Carrie. She waved half-heartedly back at him and his heart suddenly went out to
her. He hurried across the old linoleum floor, knelt down and gave her another
hug goodbye and held her tight. Hopefully the delivery will go okay, is what he
was thinking. He knew his wife was a strong women, but this was their first
child. Who knew what could happen? Then he wiped that thought out of his mind.
The delivery would go just fine. He was sure it would. Carrie was strong. They
trusted their doctor. Clive would be there to do all he could to help. You just
had to have a little faith.
After allowing herself to be held
for a moment, Carrie playfully pushed him away and said, "Better get to
work, Manager Man. Just keep your phone handy, okay?"
"Right. You know I will,
sweetheart." He paused, holding her until she gently pushed him away,
again.
"Time to hit the road,
Clive."
"Got it. I'm on my way."
Clive went to the front door, turned
and smiled and gave Carrie the 'thumbs up' sign, which she returned with a non-committal
wave and the tiniest of burps. Then he pushed through the rusted screen door
and out to the postage sized yard where his truck was parked. He noticed that
the cottonwood sapling he'd planted earlier that summer seemed to be struggling
a bit and looked a little wilted. He went to the outside faucet, filled a
bucket, came back and watered the base of the tiny tree, saying, "Come on
there, little fella', you can make it." Then he returned the bucket to the
side of the trailer, stood for a moment and looked around. The horizon to the
east was turning pink. The last stars were fading away in the clear dawn sky. His
child was going to be born anytime soon. He grinned. It was going to be a great
day.
From home he'd driven his twenty-two
year old Ford 150 the three point four miles to work, unlocked the front door
and gone inside. The first thing he did, after turning on all the lights, was
to turn on the music his boss let him play through the overhead speakers.
Classic rock, of course. 'Not too loud, Clive,' he'd been told, so he kept the
volume reasonable. The first song that had come on was 'Pink Houses' and he'd
hummed along on his way outside to the islands, where he'd taken readings on
the pumps and turned them on. Then he'd gone back inside and got going with his
day: stocking shelves, taking inventory, waiting on customers as they started
trickling in and dealing with a hundred other things that always came up.
At 7:00 am Johnny Bremer (The Pot
Smoker, as Clive referred to him to Carrie) showed up for his shift. At least
he's on time, Clive thought to himself. A high school dropout, Johnny had
worked for him for a few months and all in all wasn't a bad employee, if you
ignored his pot smoking habit that is (which Clive had trouble doing.) The
important thing was that they worked well together as a team. This morning he'd
put Johnny to work cleaning out the restrooms and sweeping the floor while he'd
manned the cash register and taken care of customers. The morning had been busy
and had moved along with nothing out of the ordinary happening.
Now here he was, behind the counter,
the morning nearly rush slowing down, thinking about what it was going to be
like to be a father. He was scared but also looking forward to being a dad. Big
time. He pictured himself coming home from work after the baby was born and
holding and playing with the new little one, even learning how to change dirty
diapers. He imagined watching the child grown and teaching him or her how to
play catch and change the spark plugs on the truck. He pictured going on family
vacations to Yellowstone and spending long lazy Christmas mornings around a
decorated Christmas tree opening presents. So many things he'd do and share
with his child that his dad never did with him because he hadn't been there. No,
his father had left home just after Clive had been born never to be heard from
again. Well, Clive certainly wasn't going to go down that road. Not ever. Not
on your life.
He shook his head to rid himself of
the image of his long departed father. He figured that if he was scared, it was
in a good way and that made him feel a little better, a little less nervous. He
and Carrie had decided not to be told the sex of their child and, instead, wait
to find out until the baby was delivered. Would they have a little girl or
little boy? It didn't matter. As long as he or she was healthy, that was the
main thing. And doctor Sanderson had reassured them all along that the little
baby was 'Still fit as a fiddle' as she had told them the during their visit
last week. So...all was good.
Clive was idly thinking of possible
boy names (Clint, Jeremy, Rocky) when a movement outside caught his eye. A car
was quickly pulling in off the highway. It was a gray Ford Fiesta. He watched
it race past the islands and speed up to the front of the station before
slamming on its breaks. Slow down, buddy, Clive thought to himself, along with,
Man, what a friggin' boring car. His attention was diverted, though, when all a
sudden his phone beeped. He checked the display. It was a text from Carrie and
it was urgent. 'Come now!!'
Lightning fast, he texted her back,
'I'm on my way,' and jumped into action.
He pressed a buzzer under the
counter. It rang the bell out back where he knew Johnny was probably having his
morning toke instead of emptying the trash like Clive had told him to do. God,
why had he hired the kid? He was a good enough guy, but certainly not the most
motivated person in the world. (At least he was better than that Kimo guy
Carrie had mentioned this morning. Now there was a bad news dude with a capital
B.)
Clive looked toward the door at the
back of the store leading out to the trash bins. He was starting to get mad.
Where the hell was that kid? He needed to get going and get to Carrie and get
her to the hospital. Just then the front door opened and the guy from the
Fiesta hurried in and up to the counter.
"I need to use the
restroom," the guy said, "Really bad."
"Over there," Clive
pointed to the far corner of the station.
"Thanks."
The guy hurried off and Clive shook
his head. He looked like a pudgy, burned out businessman. Jesus, fella', plan
ahead a little why don't ya'? Then he forgot about him.
Clive checked his pockets to make
sure he had his wallet, phone and truck keys. He did. He needed to get to
Carrie. Come on, Johnny, hurry up and get your ass in here.
He looked toward the back door, again,
willing the young employee to come through it. Nothing. He nervously shuffled
his feet. He didn't want to leave the counter unattended. He looked outside to
the front. Maybe Johnny was out at the islands filling the window wash
containers, showing a little initiative for a change. The station had three
islands of pumps, two pumps per island, two nozzles per pump, so they could
serve twelve vehicles if they needed to, but rarely were they all in use. Maybe
Memorial Day and Labor Day weekends. Maybe the Fourth of July. Not now, in the
middle of the morning, in the mid of the week in the middle of October. Right
now the only vehicle out there was one rusted out pickup that had just driven
in and what looked like an old farmer who gotten out, set the pump and was now
scratching himself, watching the meter turn around and around. But there was no
Johnny, that was for sure. Where was that kid?
Clive swore silently and took a
chance. He hurried around the counter, passing the eating area by the front
window on the way. Jeff Nelson and Stubby Jorgenson, two retired farmers, were
sitting at one of the four tables drinking maybe their fifth cup of morning coffee
and bull shitting about god only knew what like they did every day. Except
today. Today was different. Today was Wednesday so it was Checkers Day. They
had their old, beat up board out and were busily engaged in their game; had
been for over an hour. They didn't even look up when Clive jogged past. Old
Mrs. Shauffhausen was there, too, occupying one of the other tables, this one
in the sunshine. She was eating a sugar donut and drinking a can of coke. She
was working on a crossword puzzle like she did every day. A lonely old widow,
Clive knew his station was one of maybe five stops she made during the course
of her day. Her next stop would be the Super America a half mile west. Kind of
sad, is what Clive thought on most days, but not today. They were regulars and
he knew them not only by name, but could tell you how many kids and grand
children Jeff had (five kids, fourteen grandchildren), when Stubby lost the
thumb and index finger on his left hand (combine accident, summer of 1997), and
when Mrs. Shauffhausen had lost her husband (cancer, spring of 2015). But he
was focused on other things, mainly getting home to Carrie and getting her to
the hospital. He needed to find Johnny and find him fast.
He made it to the back of the store in record
time and was just about to yank open the back door (employees only) when Johnny
came sauntering in, trailing a cloud of marijuana smoke. He was tall and skinny
and dressed in blue jeans and a clean red flannel shirt. His hair was brown,
freshly washed and medium length. In spite of his stoner attitude, he was a
nice enough kid, a high school dropout that Clive had a bit of affection for.
It was one of those things...Johnny was family, his mom's brother's kid. Johnny
was his cousin.
"Jesus Christ, man, what the
hell are you doing?" Clive yelled at him, "Get your ass in here.
You've gotta' watch the till. Carrie's having the baby. I'm on my way to take her
to the hospital. " Clive dragged Johnny through the store and plopped him
down on a stool behind the counter. He pointed back to the eating area,
"You've got Jeff and Stubby and old Lady Shauffhausen over there, and
there's a guy in the bathroom. You should be okay. You have any problems, text
me. Okay?" Clive grabbed Johnny be the shoulders so they were looking eye to
eye, "Hey, you hear me? Text me if you need me. Got it?"
"Sure, sure, man. Relax,"
Johnny said, trying to take in what Clive was ranting about. But it was hard.
That Rocky Mountain Green his older brother had brought home from his trip out
west this past summer was wicked strong. He maybe 'Got' half of what his cousin
was talking about. If that.
"Just don't screw up,"
Clive said taking a final look around the store, verifying that everything
looked in good shape. "I'll text you when I know more about Carrie."
Then he had a thought, "I'll see if I can get a hold of Marilyn to come in
and help."
Marilyn Digbee was a retired widow
who worked eight hours a week to supplement her social security. She was a
good, stable employee. Problem was, she couldn't see very well due to glaucoma and
had a tendency to talk to the customers way too much (in Clive's opinion), but
that was all right. Any port in the storm, is what he was thinking as he
hurried out the front door to his truck. He started up the old Ford and sped
off. Later that day, he remembered...shit, he never did get a hold of Marilyn.
Johnny watched Clive leave, quickly
forgetting what little he remembered of what his cousin and boss had told him
to do. Instead, he gazed out the window and watched the old farmer with the
pickup scratch himself and pump his gas. Then he idly picked up a small bag of Cool
Ranch Doritos and carefully opened it. The clock read 8:45 am. He worked until one.
He yawned. Man, it was going to be a long day. He put a chip in his mouth and chewed,
his mind settling into a hazy fog of nothingness. A minute later he took out
another chip and ate that one, too.
Dave had run
from the counter to the far corner of the store, saying a quick ''Thank
god," when he saw the men's room was unoccupied. He'd pushed through the
door and hurried inside, not even bothering to lock it. He'd barely made it in
time, but he did (Whew!)
When he was finished he washed his
hands, dried them on a paper towel and felt himself finally starting to calm
down. He took a deep breath, let it out, and took a moment to look at himself
in the mirror. He was wearing his standard clothes for work, white shirt and
tan khaki slacks. No tie. He was five-nine and clean shaven and not all that
bad looking even though his hair was thinning and his cheeks were a little
jowly from the extra weight he'd been putting on for the last ten years or so. Lately,
Karen had been on him to begin to exercise, but he was hoping to eventually get
her to understand that working out was simply not in his genetic makeup. She
should know by now, after twenty-six years of marriage, that he was not much of
a doer in the physical exertion department. For instance, he'd much rather read
that run. Let him curl up with the latest issue of 'Scientific American' and he
was one happy, albeit slightly overweight, guy. The quiet, contemplative life
was more his style. So he was used to how he looked with his rather plain and
non-descript appearance, and he accepted that he'd never be what others
considered, 'In shape.' Such was the lot in Dave's life and he was just fine
with that. Why run and get worn out when you could just saunter along, take
your time, and enjoy your surroundings? That summed up his philosophy
perfectly.
So, disregarding his appearance, the
main thing today was this: He felt good. Great, even. Not nervous at all. Well,
not too much, anyway, considering he'd never done anything like this before,
just acted spontaneously and taken a day off from work. All of his life he'd
done what he was supposed to do. Which was fine. That's what you did when you
were a husband and a father, right? You accepted your responsibilities and did
what was expected of you. That's the way it was supposed to be, and, honestly,
he had no argument with that. No complaints. He enjoyed being a husband to
Karen and a father to Tim and Jessie. He even enjoyed his job. He liked the
challenge of coming up with innovative solutions to help make homes more energy
efficient. He even liked the people he worked with.
But now this. Introspective by
nature, Dave was at a loss to explain why he'd done what he'd done, but he'd
done it. And here he was. He was in a Quik-Stop in the small town of Delano,
Minnesota, and he had the whole day ahead of him. In the background he could hear
another tune from back when he was in high school, "Goody-Two Shoes,"
by...What was that guy's name again? Oh, yeah, Adam Ant. Interesting name and a
catchy little song if Dave had to be honest. He smiled an inner smile and gave
himself another A in his imaginary classic rock quiz. The guys in the store
must be listening to the same radio station he'd had on in the car. An omen, maybe.
If it was, perhaps it was a good one. He'd cast his lot into doing something
different today so he might as well enjoy it.
Dave splashed some water on his face
and dried off. Refreshed, he stepped through the restroom door and took a look
around. The station was good sized. There were refrigerated units full of milk,
eggs, pop, beer and bottled water along the wall on either side of him. There
were three or four isles that ran the length of the store stocked with stuff for
sale: everything from bread and candy, to paper towels laundry detergent, even motor
oil, flashlights and windshield washer fluid. Tons of stuff, really, everything
one could possible need in an emergency or otherwise. There was a warming rack
with hot dogs and brats on it and a display of bakery goods. There was a big
coffee machine with six different kinds of coffee available (plus hot
chocolate) and, next to the coffee machine, there was a pop dispenser that had
one's choice of mountain dew, diet mountain dew, coke, diet coke, Fanta and Dr.
Pepper. In the front of the store there was a small seating area to the left of
the check out area which had a counter that seemed to take up most of the remaining
space along the front of the store. The front door was to the right of the
checkout counter.
Dave walked up and down the aisles, looking
for nothing in particular, just browsing. A man controlled by schedules his
entire life, it was dawning on him that he had no particular place to go and was
no particular hurry to get there. In fact, he was free, just like that singer
on the radio driving into Delano earlier had sung about, 'Free as a bird.' That
was him, the new Dave. It was a good feeling, one he was starting to get used
to.
He paused at a display of sunglasses near the
coffee machine and looked them over. His old ones were wrecked. Plus, they were
boring. Dave thought to himself, You know what? I should get myself a new pair.
Maybe something a little more dangerous looking than the conservative style I
usually wear.
After trying on a few, and checking
out how he looked in the smudged mirror on the rack, he finally selected a pair
of black wraparounds with tinted, dark blue lenses. These look great, he
thought to himself, primping just ever so slightly in the little mirror. I
wonder if these are the kind that singer from Molly Hatchet wears?
On his way to pay for his new shades
(as he thought of them), Dave noticed some people in a seating area on the
other side of the counter. Two guys were drinking coffee and playing checkers,
and a lady was sitting in the sun eating something and working on a crossword
puzzle. There were two empty tables. Suddenly he realized he was kind of hungry
and maybe could use a little snack himself; maybe even something to drink. He
turned back to the store and took his time looking around before finally
settling for a medium cup of hot chocolate and a maple frosted long-john.
I've never done anything like this
in my life, is what Dave thought to himself as he stepped up to the counter
with his purchases. He wasn't feeling guilty anymore about taking off from his
job. He was starting to adjust to doing something different today and he was getting
in the swing of things. In fact, he was starting to fun.
He paid for his items and decided to
do something else he'd never done before. Instead of going out to his car, sitting
in the front seat by himself and drinking his hot chocolate and eating his
long-john, he stayed in the station. Why not? The place seemed clean enough;
the guy behind the counter seemed competent, if only a little spacey, and the
other people at the tables seemed harmless enough. Plus he was enjoying the
music they were playing, now 'Highway To Hell,' by ACDC.
So he stayed. On his way to the
seating area he picked up a free local paper, The Crow River Gazette, so he'd
have something to look at. He picked out a table, sat down, made himself
comfortable, set down his new sunglasses, opened the paper and started looking
through it. The tables were close together and he could easily watch the two
old guys playing checkers and the old lady with her crossword, but he did his
best to ignore them. Instead he turned to his paper and started reading the
lead story, an article about a young farming couple who were growing organic
asparagus.
He was savoring his hot chocolate
and long-john and enjoying the story about the asparagus growing couple when
the front door opened. He looked up and immediately thought, Oh, oh, this could
be trouble. Two tough looking guys and one rough looking girl had just walked
in. The two guys were tall and skinny and looked to be around thirty. One of
them had long black hair he'd pulled back in a pony-tail. He wore ripped jeans,
scuffed black boots and a dirty white tee-shirt and had lean, hard arms,
rippled with muscles and covered with tattoos. He had the air and attitude of
the leader of the group. The other guy had a scraggly beard, shaved head with a
coiled snake tattooed on his neck. He wore black jeans, a faded black tee-shirt
and brand new black tennis shoes. His eyes were furtive and never settled on
anything. He coughed a lot. The girl looked to be no more than sixteen. She had
short, dirty blond hair, a pierced eyebrow and wore tight blue jeans and a stained,
red, tee-shirt that had the symbol of a marijuana leaf on it. On her feet were
pink flip-flops.
To Dave they looked dangerous, like
maybe there were druggies. Or criminals. Or both. Although he'd only seen
people like them on television, in his mind, they were the kind of people you
had to watch out for. They certainly looked like they needed to be avoided, which,
unfortunately, was something that was going to be hard to do, given the
confines of the station.
Dave turned the page of his
newspaper and tried to make himself inconspicuous. The three newcomers made him
nervous and a little frightened. In fact, they were killing the warm, devil may
care attitude he'd unconsciously adopted. He took a bite from his long-john and
chewed it methodically but had trouble swallowing. His mouth suddenly felt like
cotton. He pulled his sunglasses closer and turned back to the newspaper (which
right now he was really only pretending to read) and kept a cautious eye on the
guy with the black hair, the leader. He took a sip from his hot chocolate, but
it didn't help. His mouth stayed dry. In the background, Def Leppard came on through
the speakers and Dave recognized the song as an old favorite, 'Hysteria.' In his
spinning mind, the song title seemed to be more than appropriate.
The guy behind the counter greeted the
three with a non-committal, "Hey, Kimo. Hey, Lenny. Hey, Susie."
Dave held up his paper and carefully
peeked out from behind. (Was he hiding behind it? Yeah, he guessed, maybe he
was.) He watched as the three of them said nothing in return to the counter
guy's greeting. Instead, they sauntered past him like they owned the place and
started looking around, touching stuff, drifting here and there like ghosts. Dave
felt a rush of adrenaline when the three of them took their time passing near
to where he and the others sat, but nothing happened. They walked past, not
giving him or anyone else a glance. Whew. He breathed a sigh of relief and
watched out of the corner of his eye as they walked further into the station,
taking their time going through up and down the aisles, trailing their menacing
attitude like the left over smell of fried onions.
Dave was definitely on edge. He
could think of lots better ways to kill time other than perusing the Quik-Stop's
inventory of pancake mix, junk food and bungee cords. He wished the three of
them would just finish their business, exit the station and leave him in peace
so he could return to pleasantly drinking his hot chocolate, eating his
long-john and reading the local newspaper. He glanced at them again. They were
still just aimlessly walking around, doing nothing. It didn't look like they
were going to be leaving anytime soon. Dave went back to pretending to read his
paper, keeping a watchful eye on them, just to be on the safe side.
A minute later an old guy in a dirty
baseball cap and filthy jean jacket came in bringing with him a whiff of cow
manure. He stepped up to the counter, paid for his gas and took a quick glance
around. He eye-balled the three tough characters, shook his head and left. When
the door closed, the three of them all worked their way back to the counter.
The leader with the long hair and ponytail spoke in a deep, languid voice,
"Hey, there, Johnny. What's goin' on?" Dave made a note of the
counter guy's name, Johnny.
"Not much, Kimo," Johnny
said. If he was flustered, he didn't show it. He smiled and was friendly,
"What can I do for you all?"
"Give me a can of that Copenhagen
Straight," Kimo said and turned, "You two want anything?"
The guy named Lenny said, "How
about a pack of smokes, if you're buyin'? Marlboro reds."
Kimo indicated the row of cigarettes above Johnny, "You heard the man."
Kimo indicated the row of cigarettes above Johnny, "You heard the man."
Johnny pulled down a pack along with
a tin of Copenhagen and set them on the counter. "Anything else?"
Kimo took the girl by the arm and pulled
her up next to him. Susie? Was that her name? Dave tried to remember from
Johnny's greeting earlier. Yeah, that was it. Susie. She appeared to resist but
Kimo out-weighed her by at least fifty pounds. He positioned her next to him
and held her close, "What about you, sweetheart? Smokes? Candy? What?"
"How about a lottery
ticket?" she said, "Powerball."
Kimo grinned and motioned to Johnny,
"You heard her."
"They're two bucks each,"
Susie said, "Give me five," she turned to Kimo, "If you're
buyin' that is." She seemed unafraid of the tall man with the ponytail.
Way more unafraid than Dave, anyway.
Kimo reached in his pocket, took out
a roll of bills, peeled off a twenty and slapped it hard on the counter.
"Give us ten." He rolled up the money and put it back in his jeans.
"Want to pick em' yourself? Or let
the machine?" Johnny asked.
"What's the date today?"
Susie asked, "The sixteenth or something?"
"Yep," Johnny said,
"October sixteenth, twenty-seventeen."
"My sister's having a baby
today, I think. So let's go with..." and she gave Johnny the numbers she
wanted for one ticket. "Let the machine pick the rest."
Johnny printed out the tickets and
gave them to her. Then Kimo decided he was hungry so he bought three hotdogs
from the warming rack along with a big basket of corn chips and hot, cheese
sauce. He also bought himself a super sized coke, a large Mountain Dew for
Lenny and a small diet coke for Susie. He paid for everything from his roll of
bills and they all took their purchases to the last empty table in the setting
area, not five feet from Dave. Lenny said he was going outside to smoke so Kimo
and Susie sat down by themselves. Kimo pushed the basket of chips toward her
and started in on his hot dog. They didn't say a word to each other. Susie took
a chip, dipped it in the cheese sauce and ate it. Then she took a paper napkin
and wiped her fingers. Kimo ate one hot dog and started in on another.
Dave watched out of the corner of
his eye. There was a ominous presence emanating from them that was palpable,
especially that Kimo. The guy made him nervous and uncomfortable; not to
mention more than a little frightened. He was conscious of himself perspiring,
the sweat starting to run from his arm pits down his sides. Not a good feeling at
all.
From where he was sitting Dave could
easily see out the front window. The day was sunny and bright. What was he
doing hanging around in this gas station? Among other things, he certainly didn't
fit in with the crowd here. He was wearing his standard white shirt and kakis,
the clothes he normally wore for work. (Thank god he had taken his pocket
protector out earlier and left it in the car.) He looked totally out of place
compared to the locals. The guys playing checkers were wearing old jeans, faded
plaid shirts, work boots and seed caps. One of them sucked constantly on a worn
out toothpick. The old lady was wearing an old dress, a cardigan sweater, tennis
shoes and a black stocking hat even though the temperature outside was probably
in the low sixties by now. On the chair next to her was a huge canvas oversized
purse filled with what looked like her all of her earthly possessions. Like a
bag lady.
He didn't belong with all these people. He
should just get up and leave. Yeah, that's what he should do. If he was smart,
that is. Just get up, walk out the front door and go. But, then again, he
didn't want to draw attention to himself. That's the last thing he needed. What
to do? Could he just turn invisible? That's what he really wanted. To just fade
away into the background and then show up magically at work. Or back home. That
would be even better; to be back home, waiting for Karen to come in from work
and the kids to come home from school. He could be getting dinner preparations
underway. Or cutting the grass. Or fixing that leaky gutter. Anything. Anything
would be better than this.
Geez, he should never have stopped.
That damn bladder...
Dave looked past where Kimo and
Susie were sitting. The two old guys were still engaged in their checker game,
but every now and then they glanced over at Kimo and Susie. Even the old lady had
taken a break from working on her crossword and was surreptitiously keeping an
eye on them. Dave had a thought: Maybe Kimo had some sort of reputation in
town, like he was a hoodlum or something. A small time criminal. A drug dealer.
Someone not only dangerous with a reputation to boot. Geez...
In the end, for all his pondering,
Dave decided that maybe the safest thing to do was to do nothing so that's what
he did. He stayed put, but staying put wasn't easy. He tried to go back to the newspaper
and the asparagus growing young farmers but couldn't get himself to focus on
what the article was talking about. He took a bit out of his long-john but it
had lost all of its flavor. He sipped his hot chocolate but it was now cold. God,
what had he gotten himself into?
That Lenny character came back and
sat down with Kimo and Susie and started in on the chips and cheese sauce. In
Dave's mind, he looked even rougher than Kimo, what with his shaved head and
tattooed snake on his neck. In the background, REO Speedwagon started up with
'Roll With The Changes.' In the past Dave had really liked that song. Now,
though, it was different. Now, he was worried and couldn't get his mind off of
the situation he'd found himself in. In fact, he was so nervous and undone, he
barely noticed the music at all.
For his part, Johnny was having a pretty good
morning. He had a nice buzz going from the Rocky Mountain Green he'd smoked out
back earlier. He felt mellow but in control. There had been a steady flow of
cars and trucks at the pumps. At this time of day, most of the station's
customers worked in the cities so it was stop in, pump your gas and get moving.
A quick stop, just like the name of the station implied, and Johnny laughed to
himself every time he thought about it.
On any given day, the only customers
who stopped in for gasoline and actually took the time to come inside the
station, were those that wanted to pay with cash (rare) or buy something to drink
and get something to munch on. He sold a lot of large coffees and donuts, bags
of Doritos and other kinds of chips, too. Those customers usually paid quickly
and were on their way. Everyone used a credit card these days so Johnny didn't
even have to make change. Easy, schmeezy.
In addition to the commuters, though,
this time of year a lot of customers were guys with their small, independent lawn
service companies who were out doing yard work and cleanup: AJ's Yard Service,
West Metro Cleanup, Steve and Joe's whatever. They'd pull in with their pickups
pulling trailers loaded with lawnmowers, leaf blowers, rakes and huge tarps for
collecting leaves. They'd come inside and buy coffee and pop and chips and
donuts and hostess cupcakes and all other kinds of easy to take with them snacks.
Johnny like the yard cleanup guys. They were always friendly and would sometime
shoot the breeze with him for a few minutes, taking a break in their day, giving
Johnny a break in his.
Around 10:00 am or so, the rush
usually slowed down considerably and that's what was happening today. The only
customers in the store were those two old famers Jeff Nelson and Stubby Jorgenson
with their checker board, and crazy old Mrs. Shauffhausen with her crossword
puzzle. Johnny wasn't worried about them; they were regulars and could easily
spend the entire morning doing whatever it was that they did. They were
harmless. Kimo and Lenny and Susie were fine, too; a little messed up with
drugs maybe, but, hell, he liked his little toke now and then so who was he to
judge? Right now they were just quietly talking amongst themselves and hanging
out. They weren't a problem. It was that business man guy sitting in the eating
area with the others that he was suspicious of. The guy with the newspaper. He
looked strange. He wore those weird businessman slacks and a white shirt. He
was short and pudgy and nearly bald. He looked like he should be on the road selling
insurance somewhere, not sitting in a gas station reading a boring local paper,
killing time with his hot chocolate, which must be ice cold by now. Johnny glanced
at him again, remembering that, yeah, that's right, he bought a long-john, too.
It looks like it's only half eaten. What's the deal with that guy, anyway? He's
not from around here, that's for sure.
Johnny glanced at him again and
decided, Ah, what the heck. Live and let live. The businessman guy seemed
harmless enough and probably was. To each their own. Johnny shook his head and
went back to looking out the window, watching the traffic out on the highway,
wondering what was it with some people that they could just wile away the time of
day like that businessman was doing, sitting in a small town gas station all
morning, doing nothing. Crazy world, that's what it was. For sure.
Johnny waited on a few more
customers who came inside to pay for gas and a few other things. One person
also bought a newspaper and milk and another one took advantage of the 3 for $5
Reese's Peanut Buttercups on special. Then things at the pumps calmed down
again and all was quiet.
Around 10:30 am Johnny was munching
on his Cool Ranch chips when he noticed a kid about eighteen (Johnny's age)
turn off the highway and speed into the station on a red Kawasaki Crotch
Rocket. He watched as the rider by-passed the pumps and zipped up to the front
door. He parked his bike, got off, and, instead of coming inside, just stood
next to it looking around. What's this guy want? Johnny wondered to himself.
Then he had a thought: Ah, he's probably wondering if he's got enough loose
change to buy a can of pop or a candy bar of something. It always amazed him
how many people actually stopped in and then realized they didn't have any
money and used a credit card to by a cup of coffee and a sweet roll. Maybe this
guy was like one of them. Then he realized he should quit staring out the
window, eating chips and daydreaming. He should get busy and do something.
There was a list of jobs that needed doing that Clive had left next to the cash
register. Johnny checked it. Oh, yeah, right at the top of the list was
written, 'Cigarettes.' That's right, the cigarettes. He needed to restock them.
He set down his chips and got busy.
He had just opened a carton of
Marlboro Golds and was putting them up in the overhead cigarette case when the
front door opened. Johnny stopped stocking the cigarettes and glanced over his
shoulder. The kid on the motorcycle had just come inside and was reaching into
the pocket of his jacket as he did so. Johnny didn't recognize the guy, had
never seen him before in his life. He was wearing a dark blue baseball cap
pulled on backwards and was medium height and weight. He had a round, moon
shaped face and looked younger than Johnny had first estimated, more like he
was barely in high school. He had pimples on his face and black jeans, an old
blue jean jacket buttoned to his neck and wore neon green Adidas trainers.
Johnny set down the carton to get ready
to make eye contact and call out a greeting, but the kid didn't even look at
him. Not at first. Johnny watched as the kid took a quick glance around the
store. He seemed to take note of the people in the eating area. He waited a
beat and then stepped up to the counter. Johnny was starting to smile and say,
"Hi," when he stopped and said to himself, Shit, this is going to be trouble.
Big time.
The kid had just pulled out a gun, a pistol,
actually, and had it pointed right at him. Johnny knew fire arms, had grown up
with them his whole life, and this one was a .22, of that had no doubt. A small
caliber, maybe, but it could still do damage. It could still kill someone. Johnny
instinctively moved the carton aside and raised his hands. Damn, this wasn't
good. He figured the kid was going to rob him. A quick image of Clive ran
through his brain. Clive would be pissed that this was happening to his store
and that wouldn't be good. Johnny liked Clive a lot. Even though he was Johnny's
boss, he was a fair man. Not to mention his cousin. The last thing Johnny wanted
to do was to piss him off and let the station be robbed on his shift. But he
had no choice in the matter. That's exactly what was happening.
"Hands where I can see
them," the kid commanded Johnny, pointing the pistol at his chest and
moving it back and forth as if to make the point perfectly clear that he was in
charge.
Johnny got it. He put his hands up
higher. The bore of the gun looked ten times bigger than it was, but that
didn't matter. He'd do whatever the guy wanted. The last thing he wanted was to
get shot and maybe killed over some gas station money. Besides, he remembered
once that Clive had told him what to do in just such a situation. He'd said,
"Just give them what they want, man. Don't argue. Do what they say. And,
for god's sake, don't try to be a hero."
Well, no problem on that account,
Johnny was now thinking. No chance of him either being, or ever becoming, a
hero. Besides, he suddenly had the shakes and was doing all he could to keep his
teeth from chattering out of his skull.
"Give me all the cash in the
till," the kid ordered. In spite of his young age, his voice was deep and
gruff. Hard sounding. Johnny had a quick image run through his brain of some
old gangster movie like 'Bonnie and Clyde' and them robbing a bank out in the middle
of the boondocks somewhere in Kansas. Then he shook the image from his mind,
punched open the till and started to take the bills from the tray in the cash drawer.
He grabbed a nearby plastic bag like they gave out all the time and put the
money in it. The bag had the station's logo on it and a smiley face. Johnny's
hand was shaking so badly he could barely get the money in. And he wasn't
smiling. Not at all.
While Johnny emptied the till, the kid
turned quickly to the tables and told everyone, "Hands up so I can see
them. Don't move. No one. One move and I'll shoot."
Dave took one look at the gun and
his heart went into overdrive. He thought for sure he was going to pee his
pants. Or have a heart attack. Or both. But he did neither. Thankfully, he was
able to get control of himself. In fact it all happened so fast, he wasn't ever
entirely sure of the sequence of events, but one thing he was sure of. He did
not pee in his pants. Or have a heart attack.
What he did remember was this:
After the gunman told everyone in
the eating area to put their hands up, he turned back to Johnny, watching
carefully as the money was taken out of the till.
"Just put it the bag, man.
Quick," he barked out.
Johnny did what the kid wanted him
to do and hurried.
When the kid was satisfied Johnny was
doing as he was told, he turned and kept an eye on Jeff and Stubby and Kimo and
Lenny and Susie and Mrs. Shauffhasen and Dave. Then he turned back to Johnny
and watched him for a moment before turning back to where Dave and the others
sat. He watched them for a moment before turning back to Johnny, nervously shuffling
his feet, watching and waving the gun back and forth between Johnny behind the
counter and all the people in the seating area and back again. Over and over.
The more he did it, the more nerve wracking it became. What if the gun went
off? What if someone was shot? Or worse, what if someone was killed?
While all of this was going on, Dave
tried to control his breathing. His heart was racing. He tried to will himself
to be calm, like he'd heard you were supposed to do in these kinds of
situations, but it was hard. Impossible, really. A million scenarios were
flashing through his brain, none of them good. What if the guy went nuts all of
a sudden? What if he started shooting? What if he took a hostage? What if that
hostage was Dave? Oh, god..
He looked outside. Where were more
customers when you really needed them? But the gas pumps were empty. No one was
around. He could see out to the highway where there was only sporadic traffic.
No cars were pulling in. They were all alone. No one was going to save them.
It occurred to Dave right then and
there that he might die. This young kid with the gun might freak out and shoot
him the chest and he'd end up bleeding to death on the floor of Quik-Stop gas
station on this bright, sunny day in the middle of October in a sleepy, little
town fifteen miles from the safety of his home and the warm, loving arms of his
wife and kids. Oh, god, no, please don't let that happen. He didn't want to
die. He wasn't ready for this.
Dave risked a chance and glanced at
the gunmen. Oh, shit. It dawned on him that the guy was just a kid and he
wasn't even wearing a mask. Jesus, that wasn't good, was it? The kid could be
identified. Everyone in the station could easily see him, probably remember him
and pick him out of a line up, right? Damn, this wasn't good. The gunman would
probably kill them all just so there weren't any witnesses. Oh, god...
Dave glanced at the farmers. They
had their hands in the air, doing as they were told, their faces expressionless
(except for the guy with the toothpick. He was really working that little piece
of wood, worrying it to death.) The old lady was clearly frightened and looked
like she might break down at any moment, but she was trying to be strong. She was
conscientiously obeying the gunman's command and keeping her hands up high
where he could see them. They were shaking. Kimo and Lenny had their hands up,
but not very high. It was almost as if they were taunting the kid and his gun,
like, Come on, I dare you to shoot. Susie's hands were up, too. Dave could see
by her expression that she was scared, and she was definitely following the
gunman's instructions.
When Johnny had the till emptied, he
handed the bag of money to the kid, who grabbed it, took one look inside and
shook his head, "Not good enough, man. There's got to be more around here
somewhere. Where is it? I want more than this." He waved his gun some more
to make his point.
Dave could see Johnny become visibly
frightened, but he admired the young man for keeping his voice calm, "This
is all the money we keep in the station. If we need more, we go to the
bank," he motioned behind him, outside somewhere down the street, "Honest."
Dave believed him. Even in his
terrified state, he had to admit that keeping very little cash on hand in the
station was a wise policy.
"Shit," the gunman said,
and slammed his fist on the counter, starting to get mad.
In the background, Dave was suddenly
conscious of the song playing through the speakers, 'Bad To The Bone.' He
shuddered as he listened, imaging what horror could possibly happen next.
Johnny ducked, thinking that the
robber was going to shoot him for not having any more cash on hand. Dave
flinched as well and immediately felt sorry for the young gas station employee.
It was Johnny who would feel the wrath of the gunman first if he lost control.
He'd be shot, that much was clearly evident, and could even be killed. The
gunman seemed more than a little un-hinged. God, what a horrible situation to
be in. If Dave was the one behind the counter what would he do? He had no idea,
but he was drawn into the drama unfolding at the front of the store. The more
he watched, the more he had to admit that Johnny was handling the situation
incredibly well. In fact, much better than Dave ever could have if the roles were
reversed. That was for sure.
Dave glanced at the other hostages
(which is how he was now thinking of the situation as; a hostage situation.) They
were all nervously following what was transpiring at the counter. The two
farmers and the old lady and Susie were all holding their hands up high in the
air, obeying the gunman's orders. Lenny was still were trying to look bored
with the proceedings, but Dave could tell he was nervous, too. The guy's hands
were shaking. Kimo, for his part, just stared at the gunman, giving away
nothing, his face non-committal. More than anything, though, he looked mad that
this was happening. It occurred to Dave that both Kimo and Lenny had probably
done the same thing themselves more than a few times in their careers as petty
drug dealers (which is what Dave was pretty sure they were); robbed some poor,
unsuspecting slob or slobs. Dave made it a point to keep his hands held high where
the kid could see them. The last thing he wanted to do was make him angry or
draw attention to himself.
"No more money, eh, buddy?
Well, that's just too bad for you." The kid angrily waved his gun, motioned
to Johnny, "Get over with the others."
Johnny hurried from behind the
counter to the nearest table and sat down. It was the table where Dave was
sitting. Johnny glanced at him as he took his seat and nodded a greeting. Dave
didn't know what else to do, so he nodded back. Unexpectedly, just that quick bit
of human contact made him feel a little better. A little less nervous. A little
less frightened. Only marginally, maybe, but even a little bit better was
better than nothing at all. He'd take it.
The gunman barked an order, "Listen
up! Everyone, empty your pockets. All of you. Money on the table. Phones, too.
Everything."
With the gunman so close, Dave could
smell the guy; rank sweat, mixed with cigarette smoke. Maybe some booze.
Jesus, please get me out of this
alive, was what Dave was thinking as he did as he was told and put his cell
phone, car keys and wallet on the table next to his sunglasses and newspaper. Johnny
pulled out his own wallet, a set of keys, some loose change, a Swiss army knife
and some rolling papers, and set them all next to Dave's stuff. Around the room
everyone else was doing the same thing, putting everything they had with them
on their table for the gunman to steal.
Dave chanced a glance at Kimo. He'd
set out a fat wallet stuffed with bills (Dave could see them sticking out), a
couple of phones, a crumpled pack of cigarettes, some pieces of paper (maybe
receipts from somewhere?) and his new can of Copenhagen. He noticed he didn't
put out the wad of bills he'd used earlier. Dave thought at the time that it
was one of two things: either incredibly brave, or incredibly stupid.
Why he could remember all of this,
Dave had no idea, but he did. In fact, it was when he was looking at Kimo's
stuff that what happened next, happened. And that's what he would never forget.
Dave was imagining that once the kid
collected all their possessions, he'd herd them into a back room somewhere.
He'd blindfold them, tie them up, make them sit on the cold floor in the dark
and hopefully just leave them. Not the best situation, for sure, but that was
okay. He could live with it. A least they'd be alive.
But there was also a far more
sobering possibility. There was the very real possibility that the gunman would
decide to wipe away all chance of him being remembered by the hostages and do
the unthinkable. He'd take his gun just shoot. Shoot them all dead. And that
would be it. Dave's life would be over. No more happily ever after with Karen.
No more being a father to his kids and watching them grow to adulthood. No more
job. No more future. No more anything. Dave Larson would be nothing more than a
name on a tombstone in Long Lake's cemetery, something to be visited by his
family every Sunday at first, but then less and less, tapering to every now and
then as time went on. If that much.
He felt himself start to panic, and his heart begin
to race as adrenaline starting flooding his system. He didn't want to die. Not
now.
Then, suddenly, the back door of the
station burst opened and in came a clean cut young man in his middle twenties
grinning and waving a box of cigars who called out, "Hey, Johnny, good
news! I'm the father of a new baby girl!!" The guy thin and fit looking
and wearing a clean, pressed, uniform of gray slacks and gray shirt with a name
stitched on it that Dave couldn't make out. There was a take charge kind of air
about him. To Dave's eyes, he looked like he knew what he was doing and could
easily take control of any situation. Given the kid waving the gun around, Dave
sure hoped he could, anyway.
Turned out he was mostly right.
Dave watched as the young man with
the cigars looked to the cash register area, and, seeing no one there, ran into
the station frantically looked around, his eyes finally coming to rest in the
eating area. It took only a moment for him to take it all in: all of them,
Dave, Kimo, Lenny, Susie, the two checker players, the old lady and Johnny, sitting
stone cold silent at their tables with their hands in the air, held captive by
the kid with the gun.
The cigar box guy immediately took a step toward them and yelled,
"Hey, what the hell...?"
Johnny yelled, "Look out Clive,
he's got a gun."
The gunman walked slowly toward the young
man, motioning with his pistol as he told him, "Hey, buddy. You there with
the cigars. Over here."
At that moment, one other thing
happened: With the gunman distracted, Kimo leaped out of his chair and tackled the
kid as he walked by. They both fell to the ground, fighting for possession of
the gun.
Dave watched, stunned, as they grappled
with each other on the floor for what seemed like eternity (but, really, was
only a few seconds), and while they did, Johnny jumped in to help. In the heat
of the battle, Dave's first thought was to duck, so he did. Then he saw the old
lady doing the same thing, the fear in her eyes unmistaken. Suddenly, something
unexpected came over him. Something primal, almost. He realized that he needed
to protect her. It was the right thing to do. So he did it. He overcame his
fear and ran from his chair and shielded Mrs. Shauffhausen while the two
checker playing farmers stood up and were getting ready to assist in whatever
way they could.
Clive ran toward Kimo and Johnny to
help, but he wasn't needed. In quick order, Kimo was able to subdue the kid and
dislodge the pistol while Johnny held him to the floor. It was all over in less
than thirty seconds. With the kid disarmed, Kimo took the pistol and smacked
him over the head with it once just for good measure. Then he set the gun on
the table next to Susie who cautiously moved away from it. When Clive realized
Kimo and Johnny had the situation in hand and they didn't need him, he took out
his phone and called the cops. Then he called his wife.
"I kid
you not," Dave later told the policeman in charge, "It was
amazing."
They were sitting in the eating area
an hour later being interviewed by a cop from the Delano Police Station who'd
introduced himself as, "Sergeant Becker. I'll be taking your
statements."
The manager, Clive, had called the
cops within a minute after Kimo (with Johnny's help) had taken down the gunman.
Three squads had shown up within five minutes, sirens blaring. It had been quite
chaotic for a while, with the cops trying to establish just what exactly had happened,
Clive trying to figure out who was who in the store, and the rest of the
hostages trying to come to grips with the fact that they weren't going to get
killed, but would, in fact, live to not only see another day, but to tell the
tale as well. All things considered, it was a very hectic next hour or so.
The cops had everyone make
themselves comfortable in the snack area as Sergeant Becker commandeered one of
the tables to conduct his interviews. Dave ended up sitting with Jeff and
Stubby and Mrs. Shauffhausen. Maybe it was because everyone was jazzed up from
the hostage crisis and the adrenaline was really flowing, because everyone was
quite talkative and they were all in really good moods. In fact, they'd all had
quite a nice conversation amongst themselves. Dave found out that Jeff and
Stubby had been friends all their lives and had each made quite a bit of money
from the sale of their respective farms in the early 2000's.They lived near
each other in town and vacationed together with their wives in Lake Havasu
City, Arizona, every winter. Mrs. Shauffhausen had taught second grade at the
local grade school for over thirty years before retiring in 1998. She was, as
she told Dave, 'Still getting over the loss of poor Howard,' her husband of
nearly fifty-one years who had died from cancer in 2015. And all three of them
had been interested to hear about the work Dave did in, as they called it, The
Cities.
"I can't believe you invent
thermostats," is what Stubby had said at one point.
"Well, I don't really invent
them," Dave tried to clarify, "I just help design them."
"What's the difference?"
Jeff had asked.
He finally realized, after a trying
to explain for a while, that no one really carried about the nuances of thermostat
design (like Dave did), so he was happy to play along and just have a nice
conversation instead. All in all, it was fun getting to know each of them.
After calling the station's owner
(who lived in New Jersey), Clive spent most of the time on the phone with his
wife, which Dave, being a family man himself, admired him for.
While he was occupied with family
matters, Clive put Johnny in charge of 'The Customers' as he called all of them,
and Dave was amazed at how conscientious the young employee had been. He'd
brought everyone (even the cops) donuts and long-johns and coffee and pop and,
because everyone was suddenly thirsty and ravenous, they'd all dug in with
gusto that was a sight to behold. In short, He tried to make things as comfortable
as he could for the former hostages and he did a pretty good job of it, too, if
Dave did say so himself. Johnny only excused himself once or twice to go out
back for a few minutes, but he always came right back.
Once Dave realized he wasn't going
to die in a flurry of bullets fired by a crazed gunman, he relaxed considerably.
In fact, truth be told, he sort of started to feel pretty good about himself. Even
though he wasn't really a hero like Kimo (and Johnny), at least he'd held his
ground and hadn't tried to run away. That counted for something. And he'd done
something else: He'd done what he felt was expected of him and that was to try
and protect an innocent bystander, in this case Mrs. Shauffhausen, not even once
stopping to consider that he himself was an innocent bystander as well.
Everyone felt the same way about
Dave's action.
Clive called what he did,
"Heroic, man. What you did was flat out heroic."
The farmers both shook his hand and
Stubby said, "You did a good thing there, young fella."
Johnny added, "Nice job, there,
Mr. Businessman."
Even Kimo took a moment and told
him, "It's never a bad thing to watch out for old ladies." He then paused
for a moment, thinking, before adding, "Or kids, either, for that matter,
man. Kids are also good to protect."
Dave just grinned and felt sheepish,
but, truth be told, it felt good to be acknowledged in a positive way by the
group.
Waiting to be interviewed they'd all
sat around talking, rehashing the event, occasionally standing up and walking
around to burn off nervous energy. In retrospect, as far as Dave was concerned,
talking to everyone (mainly Jeff and Stubby and Mrs. Shauffhausen) was not only
fun but interesting. They weren't the type of people he normally associated
with, but he enjoyed getting to know them, nevertheless.
He even talked to Kimo and Susie.
(Not so much Lenny, he was pretty quiet.) But Kimo was a talker, that was for
sure. Dave figured he was wound up from jumping the gunman and saving the day,
but whatever the case, it turned out he was an all right guy, even if he did look
and act like a drug dealer (which Dave still assumed he still was, saving the
day or not.) It turned out that Kimo not only worked in a body shop in Maple
Plain, the next town to the west, but he also played rhythm guitar and sang
back-up in a cover band called 'Ramblin' Men,' a five piece group that
specialized in music from the '80's. Ironic; that was the term that came to
Dave's mind when he found out about Kimo's cover band, given it was classis
rock music that had lit the fire that got Dave on the road to Delano in the
first place. Anyway, he had a pretty good time talking to Kimo. Drug dealer or
not, he wasn't a bad guy.
Susie was nice, nicer than she
looked, anyway, which was a little sleazy when Dave thought about it, especially
compared to his daughter, Jessie. One thing she was though, and that was quiet.
She tended to listen more than anything, especially around people she didn't
know, which was most of them. She did, however, spend a lot of time talking to
Clive.
"She's Clive's sister in
law," Kimo told him at one point, biting into a hot dog, which by Dave's
estimation was at least his fourth of the day. Clive had finally told everyone
they could eat whatever they wanted, and Kimo apparently had a thing for the
stations hotdogs. After he told Dave about Susie being related to Clive by
marriage, Kimo was quiet for a moment, chewing contemplatively, before adding,
"I guess she's an aunt now to Clive and Carrie's kid." Kimo smiled
before asking, "I wonder how's she' going to like that gig?"
Dave had no idea what Kimo was
talking about, but responded with the first thing that came into his mind, a
non-committal, "Really," a comment which made no sense to him, but
was a term he'd picked up in the last hour or so from overhearing conversations
among the younger people.
But Kimo seemed to take some meaning from it
because he turned to Dave, nodding sagely, and told him, "Yeah,
really."
When Sergeant Becker got around to
talking to Dave, the conversation didn't last too long.
"I just want to follow up on
what you told me earlier." He and Dave were situated at the interview
table, both sipping cups of coffee supplied by Johnny, "You say you're
from Long Lake?"
"Yes," Dave said, pointing
out the window, "Just east of here fifteen miles or so."
The sergeant nodded and made a note
in his notebook. "Yeah, I know where it is." Then he asked, "So
what were you doing out here in this neck of the woods?"
The way he asked it made Dave wonder
if there was maybe more to the policeman's question than met the eye. Then he
had a sudden start. Wait a minute. Was there? Was he guilty of anything? Dave
paused for a moment and thought about the sergeant's question, picturing his
wife Karen, his kids Tim and Jessie, and his job in the cities. He was just a
regular guy who'd kept his nose clean his entire life. He'd never had so much
as a parking ticket. So, no, he had absolutely nothing to hide. He wasn't
guilty of anything. Not unless you counted skipping work and hitting the road
and listening to classic rock music a crime. And Dave was pretty sure it
wasn't.
"It was a nice day. I was just
out for a drive, officer," is what Dave finally said, politely,
"Nothing more." Why should he have to explain himself?
"And you stopped in here
because...?"
Oh. Well, there was that.
Dave shifted in his chair, averted
his eyes and said in a voice so low it was almost a whisper, "I had to use
the restroom."
"What's that? I didn't quite
hear you," Sergeant Becker asked, leaning forward. He was a big man, at
least six-two. He had a muscular build, short hair, a trim moustache and had an
air of confidence that made you respect him. And pay attention to him. Dave
felt himself start to perspire.
Kimo, who had been listening in at
the next table, leaned over and said, his voice louder than necessary in Dave's
estimation, "You heard the man, officer. He had to pee. He had to take a
wicked whizz. He had to..."
Sergeant Becker held up a hand to
shut Kimo up. "I got it."
Dave felt himself flush as he looked
at the policeman before stating clearly, "I had to go to the
bathroom."
The policeman nodded again, smiled,
made a note and then closed his notebook. "Okay, then. I think that'll do
it."
And that was that.
By the time the police were wrapping
up their investigation it was nearly 2:30 in the afternoon. Crime scene tape
had been removed and the station was open for business. Clive had been relieved
by Jack Franklin, the manager from 2:30 pm to 10:30 pm shift, who was talking to
Ben Stiles who was relieving Johnny. The police were ready to leave and there
was nothing more required of any of the former hostages. "Thank you all for
your time," Sergeant Becker told everyone on his way out the door,
"You're all free to go."
But no one was in a hurry to leave.
It was like they were all bonded by the ordeal they gone through. They'd all
survived. They shared something that never had happened to any of them before
and (hopefully) would never happen again.
Dave chatted some more with Jeff and
Stubby and Mrs. Shauffhausen, while Kimo and Lenny and Susie talked with Clive
and Johnny. Finally Clive checked his watch and said, "Holy shit, I've got
to split." He needed to get back to Carrie at the hospital, but before he
left he took out his phone and showed everyone photos of his new daughter, who
he said was going be called Shane. He took down everyone's phone number to text
them. "I'm going to invite you all out to our place in a month or so.
Carrie and I are going to have a big party to celebrate the birth of our new daughter,"
he told them. Everyone told him they'd be there. Even Dave (just to be polite,
he told himself, but then again, you never knew.) Then Clive shook everyone's
hand and left.
Dave felt he should get going, too. It
was about 2:45 pm. He said his good-byes to everyone: Mrs. Shauffhausen, Jeff
and Stubby and Johnny, Kimo and Lenny and Susie, and made his way to the front door.
Before he left, though, he turned, looked back into the station and thought,
What an amazing experience I've just had. Something Sergeant Becker said came
back to him. "You know, Mr. Larson, you're lucky you weren't killed, don't
you? That guy with the gun could have easily lost control and started shooting.
He could have killed everyone. It could have been a real tragedy." Then
the sergeant had paused to let his words sink in (as if he needed to), before
adding, "Thank god it had a relatively happy ending."
Dave heard later that the motorcycle
kid was a speed freak who could, indeed, easily have lost control and shot
everyone, just like Sergeant Becker had suggested. To this day Dave still
shutters when he thinks about it.
For now, though, on this sunny
afternoon in Delano, Dave had one primary thought: Thank god it was a happy
ending. And it did have a happy ending, but the bigger question was this: When
he got home, would he tell his story to Karen and the kids or not? Would he
tell them about the gunman and the hostage situation and how Kimo and Johnny
saved the day? Would he tell them about Clive and his baby daughter? Would he
tell them about the farmers, Jeff and Stubby, and would he tell them about Mrs.
Shauffhausen? Would he tell them about the small role he played in the happy
ending? Good questions. Very good questions. He wasn't sure what he was going
to do. What he was sure of, though, was that he had a lot to think about.
Throughout the aftermath of the
robbery, for the rest of that morning and into the afternoon, a couple of news
crews from the cities had appeared and set up camp in the parking lot of the
Delano Quik-Stop. They'd gotten their cameras rolling and interviewed everyone.
Dave was pretty sure the events that played out today in the little town would
be on the evening news in the cities. Maybe. Sergeant Becker told him there was
a fifty-fifty chance. Apparently there was something to do with the governor
going on at the capital in St. Paul that might be the lead story. At any rate,
Dave and Karen didn't watch the evening news all that much because they were
usually busy with the kids or getting dinner ready or attending to some other
pressing family matter. In fact, there was a very good chance Karen might not
see the story. But if it did make the news, some of their friends might see it.
In fact, the more he thought about it, the more Dave was sure that eventually someone
would see his face on the television and wonder, at some point, what in the
world was Dave Larson doing out there in Delano on a Wednesday morning?
So in the end, he wasn't sure what
he was going to do. But he did know this: He felt energized by the entire
experience. And he felt good, really good; more alive than he'd felt in a long
time.
Dave said a final, silent good-bye
and stepped outside. The day felt clean and fresh. There was a faint aroma of
burning leaves in the air. He took a minute to take a deep breath before slowly
letting it out. He turned his face into the bright October sunlight and let the
sun's bright rays warm his face. He felt in some small way like he was a
changed man. It felt good to be alive. He'd skipped a day of work, went to a
small town and got involved in a robbery and hostage situation (not to mention
a potential shootout) and survived. He'd met and talked with people he never
would have considered talking to before and found out they were all nice,
decent folks (even Kimo.) Heck, he'd even been invited to Clive's for a party. In
short, he'd never had a day like he'd just had in his entire life. Not even close.
He knew he'd always remember the experience. It had been unforgettable.
He checked his watch. It was 2:52 pm.
He got in his little Fiesta, started it up, put it in gear and headed out to
the highway. He didn't have to think twice about where he was going. He took a
right and headed east to Long Lake. He was going home. He'd be back at work
tomorrow, that much was for certain. He'd be back with his family, too, in a
little while, right where he belonged. He couldn't wait. He also made a snap
decision: I'll think I'll tell my family my story, is what he decided. What
have I got to lose?
But today wasn't over with yet. Dave
slipped on his new sunglasses and turned on the radio. Instead of classical
music, he kept it tuned to the classic rock station. No more stings and
symphonies and concertos and sonatas for him. At least not for a while. For
now, he'd stick with drums and bass and electric guitars.
As he accelerated away from Delano,
he rolled down the window and let the wind blow through what little hair he had
on his head. He was in a great mood. The next song that came on was by Queen.
He recognized 'We Are The Champions.' He turned up the volume and started
singing along and as he tapped his fingers lightly on the steering wheel. After
the first verse, he started singing louder and kept the car pointed down the
highway toward home, more than happy to let the music carry him there. More
than happy to make the most of this unexpected day and to rock out, while he
still had the chance, just a little while longer.
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