Back then, back
when he was just a gangly kid and before he became an artist, I felt I had a
job to do - teach my son to be better at sports than I ever was. I'd been a second
string jock during high school so on the day Joey was born I vowed to teach him
how to play football, baseball, basketball and hockey better than I'd ever been
able to. My underlying thought was that maybe one day he'd become a superior
athlete, someone I could be not only proud of, but could also brag about to
anyone who would listen. You can imagine my horror (or maybe not, but let me
tell you, it was real) when Joey, try as he might, proved to be even less
athletically gifted than his old man.
He was nine years old when, after pre-season
hockey tryouts, the awful truth finally reared its ugly head. Joey dejectedly skated
over to where I'd been watching from behind the boards and said, "Dad, I'm
sorry, I really am. I'm trying, but those other guys are just way better than
me."
One look at the fluid motions of the
other kids on the rink, skating comfortably backward better than Joey could
ever skate forward, and I had to finally admit it - my son was not now, nor would
he ever be, a hockey player. Which was his best sport. Football, baseball and
basketball? Forget about it. The reality of the situation was painfully
apparent. Joey would never be the star athlete I once imagined he'd be.
I swallowed my disappointment and put
my arm around his thin shoulders, hugging him a little. "That's okay, son.
Really. Let's head home," I told him, trying to man up, along with beginning
to adjust my game plan for him. Now that sports were out of the picture what
could I get him interested in? Chess, maybe? Cribbage? Orienteering? I drew a
blank. None of them sounded too exciting.
I went into the locker room with him
while he changed out of his gear. When we sat on the bench, he unzipped his
equipment bag and I saw a notebook.
I pointed, "What's that?"
"Oh, nothing," he shrugged.
"It's just my sketchbook from art class."
"Art class? You're kidding."
I hadn't a clue. Having trouble drawing a stick figures, myself, I'd never once
imagined he'd enjoy anything like painting or whatever.
He grinned, "Yeah, Dad, for my
drawings. Here, let me show you." He opened it. "Lately, I've been sketching
snowflakes and winter scenes. I'm thinking about maybe using them for cards for
the holidays. Tell me what you think."
He lay the sketchbook on my knees
and went about getting changed. I paged through his drawings, each one more
impressive than the previous. He'd used what looked to be a pen and ink to
create intricate snowflakes all with six pointed tips. Each one was unique and
amazingly detailed. The snowflake sketches were followed by a series of charcoal
drawings of winter scenes, mostly landscapes in the country, some with
farmhouses, some with people, some with animals. One even had a horse drawn
sleigh. He'd used colored pencils to make the scenes come alive with subtle tones
of greens and browns and reds and blues. To my way of thinking they were
utterly charming and made me think of those Currier and Ives calendars.
I turned to him, "Joey, these
are amazing. How long have you been drawing like this?"
He laughed, "Ever since I can
remember, Dad. Since I was a little kid." Then he was quiet for a moment
before adding, "Mom kind of got me started."
Oh. Gail. My wife and Joey's mother.
She'd passed away four years earlier when he was only five. In many ways we
were still coping.
I looked at him seriously.
"These really are wonderful, son," I told him.
"Thanks, Dad," he said as
we stood up to leave.
He grabbed his heavy hockey bag,
hoisted it over his shoulder, tilting to the right a little under its weight, and
started for the door. I held his sketchbook in my hands, aware that I was holding
something special, something that really was what my son was all about, not
just some sad, preconceived sports fantasy of his father's. I suddenly had an
idea. "Hold on a minute." He stopped and I took the bag from him. (It
really was pretty heavy.) "How about if on the way home we stop at Blick's
Art Supply and check out what they've got, maybe get you some supplies. What do
you think about that?"
Joey picked up his hockey stick and looked
at me questioningly. He knew how much I loved sports. "You sure,
Dad?"
"Yeah," I said, biting a
metaphorical bullet, "Looks like we've got an artist in the family."
Joey grinned as we walked to the
car. His step seemed lighter, somehow, like a weight had been lifted, and I
don't just mean the equipment bag. It was good to see him so happy.
Next to the art store was a sporting
goods exchange. We parked and while Joey went inside and looked around for art
supplies, I went next door to see if I could sell his hockey equipment, which I
did. Then I hurried next door to met him. But before I went inside I stopped a
minute, looked through the window and watched as he perused the aisles, happily
caressing the paints and brushes and sketchpads and canvases. He seemed in
another world, one that he felt comfortable in. Natural.
I headed for the front door. Once
inside, I'd get him to show me what all the art supplies were used for. Maybe
I'd buy him an easel or something to get him set up properly for his art work. He
was a good kid. I guess I had a lot to learn. It was time I started paying
better attention.