Man, he
loved his horse; a Tennessee Walker such a deep, rich, chestnut color, it made
his eyes hurt sometimes if the sun hit it's coat just right. He gently placed
the worn, blue and red Navajo patterned wool blanket onto the horse's back as
the animal quivered in anticipation, muscles rippling. Then he picked up the
saddle, admiring for the thousandth time the ornate, floral carving in the
leather and then, with a practiced, confident motion, lifted it up, settling it
perfectly in place.
"There you go, old boy,"
he said, taking a moment to run his hand over the horse's withers before
tightening the chinch and securing the end through a ring on the skirting.
"Looking forward to going for a ride?" The horse's name was Paint, a
name given to him by a previous owner, one who thought the white blaze on the animal's
forehead looked like someone had painted it on. Mike McCormick ready didn't mind
the name, and it seemed Paint didn't either, so it stayed. Mike smiled when
Paint nodded his head in the affirmative. Whether it was in answer to the question
or to get rid of a persistent horsefly, it didn't matter. There was a
connection Mike felt with his horse that began the moment he'd laid eyes on the
animal four years ago. Four years and two months and sixteen days to be exact. The
day he was driving his family home from the funeral of Jessie, his seven year
old son. He had spied the 'For Sale' sign on a fence post next to a country
road and the horse standing by himself out in the pasture. It turned its head,
watching as Mike slowed his car, pulling off onto the grassy shoulder where he coasted
to a stop. He got out and walked toward fence, the brown expressive eyes on the
big horse following his every movement. The day was warm for April and a light
breeze blew from the south, ruffling the horse's black mane and tail. Suddenly
it started walking toward Mike and their eyes met and, in that moment, it seemed
like fate was suddenly intervening, driving a wedge into Mike's grief and sending
a wave of warmth through him he was unable to explain.
" I think it's something Jessie
would have wanted me to do," he tried to explain to Lauren, his wife, who,
along with their two daughters, was waiting patiently in the car. "It's
like he's trying to communicate with me. I think our son would have wanted me
to have this horse."
Lauren, who was grieving in her own
way and really didn't want to deal with her husband at that particular moment, waved
a hand at him to end the conversation, "Then go ahead and get him. Just be
careful."
Being careful became her mantra from
that day forward, and who could blame her? Jessie had died after being hit by a
car while riding his bicycle. He'd been on one of the many quiet, tree lined
neighborhood streets in the area, only a few blocks away from his home. He shouldn't
have been riding where he was, but Jessie always had a mind of his own.
'Willful' some would say. 'Independent' was how Mike looked at him. But,
whatever the term, his son was gone, gone for good and Mike began to use his
time on his horse to help alleviate his grief which, now, after all this time
was still there, but much less so, thanks, in no small part, Mike felt, to the
time he spent riding his cherished horse.
"Let's go, boy," Mike
said, stepping into the stirrup and lifting himself up into the saddle,
wiggling his butt, enjoying the feel of the leather through his jeans. He was
fifty five years old, clean shaven, with a slight paunch and a stocky build. He
had short cropped dark hair, speckled with gray, a narrow chin and droopy dark
bags under his brown eyes. His appearance was unremarkable and he knew it, but
when he rode Paint, well, he felt on top of the world. Something about being on
the horse made him feel happy and carefree. He loved the muscular motion of the
animal, the warm mixture of horse sweat and leather that filled his nostrils
and the freedom of movement, pretending when he rode that he could head off in
any direction he wanted, and go anywhere in the world he felt like going. And
even though he knew he was only pretending it felt good to go somewhere,
anywhere, in his mind and escape, if only for a little while. "Let's go,"
he said, making a clicking sound, tapping the horse with the heels of his
cowboy boots. Off they went, Paint breaking into a smooth trot; the trot Tennessee
Walkers were known for.
The horse kept a steady almost metronome pace
as Mike steered him down the driveway. It was paved with crushed red limestone
and easy on the horse's hooves. Little puffs of dust hung in the still air as
horse trotted along, the early evening sun reflecting off soft clouds of red
like a colorful, floating mirage. At the end of the drive was Old Orchard Way,
a paved secondary road that ran north and south through the county. He took a
left, careful to stay of the gravel shoulder. Paint moved happily at a steady
gait as Mike acknowledged with a nod and a tip of his hat the few cars that sped
past, careful to keep off to the side, 'Being careful,' just like Lauren had
asked. In five minutes they met up with the Lucie Line Trial, a state
maintained, ten foot wide, hard packed dirt track that ran east two miles to the
town of Long Lake and then twenty miles further on toward Minneapolis, and west
all the way out one hundred and fifty miles to Blue Heron Lake in the middle of
the state. Usually Mike turned left, heading back toward town, but today he was
feeling adventurous. He checked the traffic and then turned to the right onto
the trail toward the west, finally allowing himself to relax, slowing Paint to
a walk and feeling himself unwind and start to enjoy the serenity that came
with riding his beloved horse.
June blooming wildflowers of white
Campion and purple Dain's Rocket adorned the sides of the trail, vying for
space with purple vetch and yellow trefoil. Wild cherry blossoms filled the air
with a scent so sweet it made Mike's mouth water. Off to the left, in a thicket
of wild cranberry bushes, a finch sang a warbling song. From a clump of wild
sumac a wren chattered back, as if in accompaniment. The sky was cloudless blue
and the sun was moving down toward sunset, nearly level with the tree tops and
leaving a burning orange glow on the horizon. The day had been hot but now was
cooling and Mike was glad he had chosen to wear a red plaid, long sleeve, pearl
snap button cowboy shirt. He waved a few deerflies away from himself and Paint
with his old, straw cowboy hat, and concentrated on enjoying the horse's easy
saunter as they made their way down the trail, careful to stay toward the
center.
The Lucie Line Trail was an old
railroad bed that had been reclaimed by the state in the early 1980's. It
passed through five counties and a mixture of forests, fields and marshland,
and was elevated, with thick, brushy sides dropping away nearly ten feet in
some cases. The trail was popular for walking, jogging and bike riding, but was rarely crowded. Only
a few used it for horseback riding and that was fine with Mike. He liked to get
out and enjoy the peace and quiet, listening to the birds singing, immersing
himself in the natural world and letting his mind go wherever it wanted. He
rarely thought about work (he was assistant sales manager for Heartland
Controls, an international electronic controls manufacturing company)
preferring, instead, to unwind and relax. Lauren had taken the girls, Emma,
fourteen, and Chrissie, twelve, to their evening lacrosse game. Ever since Jessie's
death, she had thrown herself into raising their daughters. She had quit her
job at Mount Olivet Hospital in Minneapolis where she had been head of
Administration, telling Mike that they could use her savings to help make ends
meet. Money wasn't a problem. His job paid him well; they had bought their home
nearly twenty years earlier for a fair price a few years before housing values
had begun to shoot up. They lived in the western part of the Hennepin country
in an area that was nearly rural with rolling woodlands, marshes and small
ponds the predominant features. Like most of the homes in the area, they had three
acres, enough property to have a corral and small barn built for Paint. On
paper life was good, however, Mike was often plagued by vague feelings of
unease, sometimes even mild depression. But he wasn't one prone to considering
using drugs or drinking to escape his problems. Instead he chose to be alone
and spend time with Paint and get away from what he sometimes referred to as
'life' for a while. Like he was doing now, not thinking about if it was the
right or wrong thing to do, but, rather, that it was something he had to do.
So, to that end, he sat back in his saddle, soaking in the sights and sounds of
the oncoming evening. There were only a few people on the trail. He let Paint
have the lead and the horse walked along with an easy, undulating motion that
was almost like a narcotic. Time slowly slipped past, Paint's hooves
clip-clopping down the trail, the sun moving further below the horizon,
twilight turning to ever increasing shades of dark.
Mike awoke with a start from a deep
sleep. Night had fallen completely, the sky above nearly blocked by the tops of
tree branches forming a high arching cathedral over the trail. There were stars
out but any starlight was dim due to the thickness of the leaves; he could
barely see where he was going.
"Whoa, boy," he said, shaking
himself alert and reigning Paint in. "We need to get back to home base.
Lauren will be worried." Mike was upset with himself; his wife didn't need
more worries due to his negligence. The Lucie Line was running through a thick
forest. Up ahead he could just make out an opening to the left, probably a
marsh or pond. The trail at this point was straight as a stick, but he could
only see a little way due to the near complete darkness; sight more of an
impression of things than true vision. The forest on either side seemed intent
on hemming him in, trapping him. He fought back a vague feeling of claustrophobia
as he turned the horse around.
Paint nodded his head as he made the
turn, chomping the bit in his mouth. "Come on, boy," Mike said,
touching the horse's sides with his cowboy boots, "Let's head for
home." They were just straightening out and Paint about to break into a
trot when, unexpectedly, up out of the brush popped a coyote, right onto the
trail and only five feet in front of them. The scruffy animal planted its paws
and stopped dead. It took a second to stare at the horse and rider before it snarled,
baring canines that gleamed in the low light. It looked like it might leap at them.
Mike froze in the saddle, fear taking hold. Then the coyote barked a few short,
yipping bursts and snarled once more before sinking into a crouch and running
across the trail, where it dropped into the underbrush on the other side and scurried
to safety. The movement startled Paint so badly that he snorted and reared up
on his hind legs, whinnying and baying out of control, eyes wild. Panic caused
him to step backwards, his hooves flailing, looking for purchase in the air. There
was none. He lost his balance, falling off the trail, tumbling down the
embankment and sliding and twisting through ten feet of brush all the way to
the bottom. When he finally came to rest, Mike's left leg was crushed and
pinned beneath him. It all happened so fast that both horse and rider were
momentarily stunned. Then Mike became aware of a sharp pain in his leg at the
same moment Paint instinctively made a sudden move to stand up, his body
pushing off of his rider's leg, magnifying the intensity of the pain, raising
it to an unbearable level. He screamed in agony as a wave of nausea overwhelmed
him. It was probably fortunate that he passed out. Paint rose to his feet, shaken
but unhurt, reigns loose and hanging. The horse shook his head, stomped his
hooves and looked around, snorting once or twice, distressed. The night was
deep and dark, the woods silent. After a minute he got his bearings, settled
down, and moved to the prone body, stepping carefully on the uneven ground. He
bent down and nuzzled his rider. Mike didn't move.
It was probably the mosquitoes feasting
on his face that finally caused him to regain consciousness. "Damn,"
Mike slapped them away and then immediately screamed. The pain in his leg nearly
made him throw up. He'd never felt anything like it before-sharp pulses surging
through him like a tide of burning needles. Stupidly he tried to move,
ratcheting up the pain to an unbearable level. He nearly passed out again.
"God..." his breath was labored. He closed his eyes, but the mosquitoes
buzzing round and feeding on any exposed skin forced him to stay awake. He
feebly waved at them. He was on his back, his head facing down the slope, his
crushed leg at an odd, unnatural angle. He had cuts on both his hands and it
felt like something like a stick had punctured through the skin under his right
shoulder blade where his shirt felt wet against his back-blood, no doubt. He
adjusted himself as comfortably as he could and was closing is eyes again when
there was a loud snort, startling him back to reality. Panicking, he remembered
the coyote, wondering if it had come back to try to feed on him, a thought too
gruesome to contemplate. There had been rumors of black bear sightings in the
area too. Frantically he raised his head, trying not to move his leg, and
looked around, eyes slowly adjusting to the darkness, readying himself to fight
to the end if need be. With his fingers on his left hand he pawed through the leaves
and plant debris on the ground looking for a stick or anything he could use as
a weapon. A movement over his shoulder caught his eye and he dared to look,
expecting the worst. Then he calmed down and smiled. It was Paint. His old
horse was standing right behind him at the bottom of the slope, swishing his
tail and shaking his head to keep the bugs away. Mike couldn't help but be
touched. The animal had stayed with him rather than run off. "Hey there boy,"
he said affectionately, gritting his teeth, trying to ignore the unrelenting
pain. He reached his hand up to pet the horse, "How are you doing?"
Paint nodded his head and snorted again, stepping closer until he was near
enough that Mike could reach out and touch its leg. The connection felt good. Mike
ran his eyes over the horse's body as best he could in the dark, judging him to
be uninjured. "You look good to me, boy," he said. "You look
real good." He patted the horses leg again and then lay back down,
exhausted by the effort. He closed his eyes and passed out again.
Lauren put
the phone down with an exasperated sigh and said to her friend, Kali,
"Still no answer." She shook her head, resigning herself to her
husband's uncharacteristic behavior.
"What's up with him,
anyway?" Kali had invited Lauren and her daughters back to her home for
lemonade after their lacrosse game. She didn't have a high opinion of Mike,
thinking him at best inattentive, and at the worst, selfish and self-centered. "Why
doesn't he answer?"
"I don't know," Lauren
sighed again, "He's probably busy." With what she had no idea. He was
supposed to be on the trail with Paint but should be back by now. "Maybe
he's out in the barn. He should at least have his phone with him." She was
tired and wanted to relax with her best friend and not think about Mike right
now. The girls were on the same team lacrosse team as Kali's daughter, Heather.
They were letting off steam after the game, playing tag in the pool, laughing
and shouting. The night air was cool and refreshing, the sky brushed with a
white wash of stars. She leaned her head back in the lounge chair, put her feet
up and closed her eyes with a grateful sigh. She could stay like this forever.
"I'll call him again in a little while," she said.
Kali was concerned for her friend.
Lauren was just over five feet tall and wore her auburn hair cut so it was just
long enough to pull behind her ears. Her eyes were brown and her complexion
dark. Over the last few years her expression had taken on a more severe and
serious look, frown lines had formed around both sides of her mouth. She rarely
laughed anymore. Kali reached over and patted her friend on the arm. You just relax.
I'll go freshen up our drinks. Do you want something to munch on? Veggie's and
hummus?"
Lauren opened her eyes and looked
gratefully at her friend. She shook her head, "No, thanks. Just the
lemonade is fine." Lauren watched her blond, tall, slim friend walk slowly
toward the sliding glass patio door that lead inside the sprawling ranch house.
Kali was a confident, no nonsense person-someone who Lauren depended on to talk
with and confide in. What would I do without her? Lauren thought to herself,
not the first time today, or any other day for that matter. Then she turned back
to the pool and waved at Emma and Chrissie goofing around in the water, tossing
an oversized blue and white beach ball. She smiled a rare smile. She loved to
see her girls having fun and secretly wished she could join them. But she
didn't. Instead, she lay her head back and allowed herself to close her eyes
again; except her mind wouldn't shut down. Sure, she and Mike had drifted apart
somewhat after Jessie's death, but she still loved him and was convinced he
still loved her. All couples had to find ways to cope with tragedies, didn't
they? She and Mike were working through their grief in their own way and in their
own time. She had the girls and Mike had...What? Well, work and Paint-a horse
she really did adore. She knew others felt she and Mike should be focusing on
their own relationship, working toward reestablishing the bond they once had. Sometimes,
though, like now, it was easier to make the best of things the way they were,
letting time heal their wounds, to paraphrase the old adage. They'd been to couples
counseling off and on and she felt they were making progress; moving ahead with
their lives. She had nothing to complain about and could cope with her
husband's occasional distance. In truth, though, she longed for them to be
closer and for him to communicate with her more. To that end, in fact, she was
planning a surprise. She recently had been thinking about getting a horse so
they could go riding together. To that end she'd found a pretty little mare for
sale at a ranch just west of them. Her color was a mixture of warm honey and
cream named Butterscotch. The owner was willing to hold her for a least another
week. She could picture herself and Mike going for long, relaxing rides
together, following their whims and riding wherever they wanted; being
spontaneous for a change. The image came into her mind of her on Butterscotch ridding
next to Mike on Paint out on the Lucie Line. The thought made her smile. She'd
plan to talk to him about it tonight. Why didn't he answer his phone?
"Here's some more
lemonade," Kali said, interrupting her thoughts. She walked across the
flagstone apron of the pool and plopped down on her own lounge chair, handing
over an icy glass. "Drink up and relax."
"Thanks." Lauren glanced
at her watch and took a refreshing sip, appreciating the icy, sweetly sour taste of the drink. It was a few
minutes after 10:00 pm. She was starting to get worried about her husband.
Where was he? Then a splash from the pool caught her attention. Chrissie had
exploded into the water with a huge cannonball off the diving board. Lauren
laughed and applauded. She turned to Kali, "This is nice. The girls are
having so much fun. It's just the kind of evening we all need." She
settled herself more comfortably on the lounge and took another sip from her
glass. Just a few more minutes, she told herself. Then we'll get going.
There was a
young boy standing next to him, when Mike regained consciousness.
"Geez!" he yelled, startled, trying unsuccessfully to sit up, pain
shooting trough his back and leg again. "What the hell are you doing
here?" He lay back, groaning.
"I heard your horse, mister,
and then saw you." The kid eyed Mike quizzically. "What happened to
you? Are you Ok?" he asked, carefully stepping past Mike and moving over
to pat Paint on the nose. The horse stood still, accepting the boy's gesture,
lowering his head, encouraging him to continue. "Hi there, boy." He
started petting the horse, now using both hands, working up around his ears and
under the straps of his bridle. Paint whinnied softly in obvious pleasure.
"Coyote scared my horse,"
Mike forced the words out and raised his head to get a closer look at the boy. From
what he could tell in the dark, he was a skinny little kid dressed in a white
tee-shirt and baggy, dark colored basketball shorts. He had on a baseball hat
(Mike assumed the Minnesota Twins), worn backwards and he appeared nearly five
feet tall. Mike guessed that he was maybe ten or twelve years old. Suddenly his
vision fogged over momentarily, then cleared, and he started to have trouble
breathing. He realized there might have been more damage done to him that he
wasn't aware of. The unrelenting pain was dulling his scenes.
The kid kept petting Paint, moving
now to run his hands over the horse's shoulder and through his mane. "I
like your horse. What's her name?"
"She's a he and his name is
Paint," Mike panted. His back really hurt, his leg felt like it was
asleep, which was good, he figured. The pain was less but still a constant
throb. He lay his head down and closed his eyes.
The kid moved over to him, swatting
away misquotes. "Mister, mister." The kid shook Mike's right shoulder,
causing him to scream in pain. "Sorry," he said, backing away,
looking scared.
"Hold on, there," Mike had
come to and was holding up his hand as best he could. "Don't leave me."
"I'm not, I'm just getting some
bug spray."
Thank God, thought Mike. The mosquitoes
were swarming all over him, hungrily feeding. He watched the kid shuck off a
small backpack and take out a can. "What you got there?"
"Northwood's Off with Deet,"
the kid said. "Best stuff in the world." He shook the can, the aerosol
rattle strangely comforting, and moved closer. "Close your eyes, mister."
Mike did as he was told and in a moment the cool mist of the spray drifted over
his face. It felt wonderful. The kid then
sprayed Mike's hands. Then himself. When he was all done he put the can in the
pack and sat down on his heels, peering into Mike's face. "You Ok, mister?
You don't look so good. Do you have a cell phone to call for help?"
Mike shook his head, groaning. He'd unintentionally
left the damn thing on his dresser at home. Stupid. The pain in his back now
seemed to encompass the entire upper part of his body. He felt the kid
carefully move some leaf debris and dirt from his clothes and then gently caress
Mike's right leg, the one that was undamaged. The touch was remarkably
soothing.
"Where you from?" Mike
finally asked. "From around here?" Speaking was getting exhausting.
"Naw," the kid responded.
"Not from around here."
"How old?" Mike could barely
speak. The pain was returning but something about the kid made him curious.
"Eleven," the kid said.
"Just finished sixth grade."
Geez, Mike thought to himself, he's
the same age as Jessie would have been. Then he had a thought..."What the
hell you doing out here this time of night, anyway?" The effort to speak sapped
his strength. He lay his head down and closed his eyes, seeming to drift into
unconsciousness.
Dimly aware, he heard the boy say,
"I just went for a bike ride and ended up here."
"Really?" Mike asked
skeptically, senses on alert. Despite his pain and ever diminishing capacity to
think clearly, at heart he was still a father. Something didn't right true. "At
this time of night? Where are your parents?"
"Oh, they're around," the
kid said, looking into the forest, avoiding eye contact. "They're busy
with some other stuff."
Right, Mike thought to himself. Sounds
exactly like what the girls would say or even Jessie would have said when pushed
for the truth. He might be severely injured, but he'd been a parent long enough
to easily see through the kid's lie. Right now, though, he was too exhausted to
argue. Instead, he played along, thinking it was probably good to keep talking.
Besides, having the kid around was giving him hope that he was going to come
out of this Ok. He changed conversational gears, getting more to the point. "So
are you going to help rescue me or what?"
"Sure!" The kid sounded enthusiastic,
happy to be needed. He opened his pack again, taking out a bottle of water, "Here,
mister." He unscrewed the cap and held it to Mike's lips, "Drink
this." He tilted the bottle, cupping the back of Mike's head as he drank
thirstily, excess water running down his chin. The cool liquid felt wonderful
on his overheated body. The kid seemed to sense this and he poured some into
his hand and washed Mike's forehead and face. Mike sighed a silent, grateful
'thank you.' The kid then took a drink before capping the water and putting it
back in his pack. With the water washing off the mosquito spray on Mike's face,
he went through the spraying process again. By now, they both could see pretty
well-their eyes finally having adjusted to the darkness. "What else do you
want me to do?"
"Go get help," Mike said,
shifting up on his elbow. He could tell shock was setting in: the pain had come
back into his leg and was now a throbbing dull ache that was never ending. He
needed to do something quick. "How'd you get here anyway?"
The kid point up onto the trail,
"My bike."
"Can you ride and get someone
to help me?"
The kid looked around. "Maybe
me and Paint can pull you up to the trail. They do stuff like that in the
movies all the time."
In spite of all the pain he was in,
Mike grunted out a laugh. "And then what? I get on the horse and ride
home?"
"Damn, mister. I was just
trying to help."
The kid got up and made a move up the
slope. "Hold on, hold on," Mike said, "Don't get bent out of
shape."
He stopped and spat out,
"What?" He was angry.
"Look, we need to work
together..." Suddenly Mike screamed. He had moved just slightly to try and
get more comfortable and was leaning back when the point of a dead branch went
right into the wound under his right shoulder
blade. "God damn it!" was all he was able to say. Sweat popped up all
across his forehead, beads of it running down his face.
The kid quickly bent down to help
him, looking at what little of Mike's back he could see. "Man, mister,
you're bleeding a lot. I'll see if I can help." He pushed the sharp branch
out of the way. Then he reached into his pack and pulled out a tee-shirt.
"Here, let me see if I can stop the bleeding." Their argument was
forgotten.
Working together over the next few
minutes, the kid was able to use the shirt to staunch the flow of the blood. He
took off one his shoes and used the lace to wrap it around Mike's chest to hold
the shirt in place. The effort exhausted him and he lay back with a groan,
grateful for the padding of the kid's shirt. But the pain was still there. They
needed to do something fast."You got to go for help." Mike was laying
flat out on the ground, gasping for breath. God, maybe he'd punctured a lung.
"Where should I go?"
"Do you live around here? Can
you go to your home?"
"No, I'm from back toward
Minneapolis."
Well, that answers part of the
mystery thought Mike. "Fine. Go back the way you came..."In spite of
his labored breathing he was able to explain how to get to his house. When he
was done the kid asked, "Why don't I just take Paint? Wouldn't he know the
way?"
Smart kid. "Maybe. First you
have to get up onto the trail." He was losing the strength to talk.
"I'll do my best," the kid
said and he spit on his hands and rubbed them together in preparation. Just
like in the movies, Mike thought, as he struggled to maintain consciousness,
mentally crossing his fingers that the plan would work.
Well, it took about two minutes. The
kid grabbed hold of the horse's reigns like he was born to the task, and Paint
followed right along with all the confidence in the world. Together they scrambled
up the slope, clods of dirt flying from the big animal's hooves, both of them
slipping and sliding and fighting through the brush until they finally reached
the trail. Paint shook himself, took a moment to get his bearings, and then
immediately turned to the right and started walking toward home.
"Whoa," Mike yelled, using the last of his strength, yet watching the
whole process, impressed beyond words. "Tell him to 'Whoa'," he
gasped to the kid.
Between the two of them yelling
"Whoa" Paint finally stopped. The kid positioned himself on the side
of the horse, grabbed the saddle horn, jumped up, scrambling and kicking his
legs, fighting himself into the saddle, his feet dangling above the stirrups. Paint,
to his credit, stayed standing still through the whole process.
"I'm ready, mister," he
said. At the sound of the boy's voice the horse started walking down the trail,
heading for home.
Mike suddenly had a thought.
"Hey, kid," he yelled, using the last of his strength.
"What?" They were beginning
to move away at a steady pace.
"I'm Mike. What's your
name?"
"Jacob," came the reply,
fading into the distance. "They call me Jake."
Geez, thought Mike. That was
Jessie's middle name. Then he passed out, but not before saying a silent prayer
that the kid, Jake, would make it down the trail Ok, find where he lived and
bring help.
"Come
on, girls, time to head home," Lauren waved to get their attention. Emma
was just diving into the pool.
"Aww, mom," Chrissie
complained. "Can't we stay a little longer?"
"Nope. Go inside and change. We
leave in five minutes." Honestly, she didn't want to go and said to Kali, "The
girls always have such a good time here." The cooler temperature brought
out the scent of Japanese Lilac, it's sweet aroma filling the air. The night
was so quiet that when the girls weren't yelling and laughing she could hear a
chorus of frogs down in a nearby marsh. Off on the edge of Kali's property near
where the forest started, fire-flies were out. Lauren had spent the last
fifteen minutes distracted in her conversation with her friend, watching as
they blinked trails through the darkness, trying to guess where the next flash
of light would appear, never successful, but not caring either. It was a silly
little game, but it was fun to play. Plus, it took her mind off her worry: she
had been unable to get a hold of her husband.
"Want to stay overnight? The
kids would love it if you did," Kali leaned over, smiling in encouragement.
"Tempting as it sounds..."
Lauren checked her watch, "It's nearly eleven thirty. Mike will be
wondering where we are."
"You think? He could always
call you, you know," Kali not too successfully tried to keep her low
opinion of her friend's husband out of her voice. "All he seems to care
about is that stupid horse."
"Yes, well..." Lauren's
voice trailed off. She could see her friend's point. Lots of people felt Mike
wasn't handling the loss of their son too well. But from her perspective he was
doing as well as could be expected. If you haven't ever lost a child, don't be
too quick to judge how parents cope, was how she looked at it. She began to shake
off her relaxed mood, gearing up to head home."At any rate, we should go.
I'll call you tomorrow."
She pushed herself out of the lounge
chair and stood up, taking in the quiet, peacefulness of the night one more
time. But thoughts of Mike were now intruding. It was time to get home and find
out what was going on. In a few minutes the girls returned, dried off and
changed into shorts and tee-shirts. Lauren pulled a white cotton cardigan closer
to ward off the night's chill. "Let's go girls," she called to them.
The she and Kali embraced goodbye as Emma and Chrissie waved to Heather and
then joined her. The three of them walked side by side to their Suburban.
"Is dad home?" Emma asked.
"He should be."
"But is he?" Emma was a
persistent, exacting child.
"We'll find out, honey." They
got in, slamming doors, and Lauren started the engine. She carefully turned
around and drove down the long driveway, thankful for the illumination of her
headlights. She paused where the driveway met the dark county road and looked
both ways before turning onto the night. He switched the headlights to high
beam and accelerated cautiously to twenty four miles an hour. Then she carefully
drove home.
In five minutes they were pulling into
their driveway, head lights cutting a path through the darkness. Up ahead a few
soft lights from inside the house shone the way. Off to the right was the barn
with an outdoor security light on over it's double wooden doors. Lauren was concentrating
on driving the car up to the garage, wondering to herself where Mike was, when
suddenly Chrissie called out, "Mom! There's Paint!"
Lauren stopped the car and looked. Standing
next to the barn was Mike's horse. He was nosing at the closed door, trying to
get in, stomping his feet and impatiently shaking his head. Probably hungry,
Lauren thought herself. Then, a more immediate thought hit her and a rising
panic set in. Where was her husband?
She jammed the car into park, turned
the engine off and got out, running to the horse. Paint turned and took a step
toward her. He was comfortable with the members of the family; they all rode
him. He nodded his head up and down and snorted, loose reigns flopping. He was
sweaty, dirty and had burrs sticking to his tail and mane. Otherwise, though, to
Lauren' eyes he appeared to be alright. As she approached him she saw something
attached to a leather lace on his saddle. Emma raced ahead and got there first.
"Mom, it's a note," she
said, opening it.
"What's it say?" Lauren
was worried about her husband but trying to hold her emotions at bay, not
wanting to upset the girls anymore than they were. A tiny part of her hoped
this whole thing might some kind of joke. But she was a realist. It couldn't be.
"It says 'On the trail To the
west Hurt,'" Emma said, handing the note to her mom, who quickly scanned
the tattered piece of paper, concurring with what her daughter had said. It
didn't look like Mike's writing, but if he was hurt...
"Girls, go and check the house
for your dad," she commanded. As they ran off, she took out her phone and
dialed 911. It was 11:45 pm. Her feeling was something was horribly wrong.
By 12:20 am Hennepin County Search
and Rescue was on the Lucie Line Trail, heading west, looking for Mike. One guy
was driving a county pickup truck, headlights on high beam, while four officers
rode in the back scanning the sides of the trail with high intensity
flashlights. Behind the truck a line of hastily assembled volunteers spread out
on foot, carefully peering into the underbrush, their flashlights in constant
motion.
Lauren sat in her living room with
Kali. "Mike's gone missing. I'm scared," was all she had said into
her phone when she had called earlier. Kali came right away prepared to hear
her friend's husband had left home or something. Anything idiotic Mike would do
at this point wouldn't surprise her in the least. She immediately downplayed
her opinions, however, hearing Lauren's tearful telling of her story. "I
just hope he's alright," Lauren said sobbing when she'd finished. "The
girls and I need him safe and sound and to be here in our home. Where can he
be?"
Kali moved close and rubbed her
friend's back, "He'll be home soon. He'll be fine, just wait. Mike's pretty
strong." The words spilled out in a rush. Whether that last statement was
true or not only time would tell. Kale hoped for Lauren and the girls sake it
was. She moved closer to console her friend and hugged her tightly.
Emma and Chrissie were out in the
barn, their concern for their dad's safety running on overdrive, adrenaline flowing.
They were cleaning Paint, their nervous pacing back and forth making the job
take twice as long as it normally would. "Do you think dad's going to be
Ok?" Chrissie asked. She had sprayed the horse off with a hose and was now
wiping him down with a towel, rubbing it over his coat and rinsing it in a
bucket of clean water. After a few minutes, the repetitive motion began to have
a calming effect on both her and the animal.
"I don't know, how would I know?"
Emma spit the words out. She was mad that her dad was causing them grief, but,
more than that, she was worried. Loosing Jessie was hard enough, but the
thought of loosing their father was too much to bear. "Let's just get
Paint cleaned up, Ok?" She was running a curry comb through the horse's
mane, taking out the burrs and smoothing the stiff hairs with her fingers as
she worked. Working on the orderly task of cleaning the horse was calming her
down as well.
When Chrissie was done she hung the
towel on a post to dry, picked up a soft bristled brush and started working it
over Paint's coat. She stood on the opposite side of the horse as her sister.
After a minute they both made eye contact. The barn was silent except for Paint
occasionally stomping one of his hooves. Outside of the open door of the barn,
darkness seemed to spill in. It had a sinister feel to it. Where was their
father? Tears welled up in Emma's eyes. Chrissie saw them and then she too started
crying. Something made them join hands and lean across the horse's back. The
heat of the big animal warmed them. The closeness felt good. In a few minutes
their tears subsided and they both went back to work in silence, bonded by the
mutual hope that their father was going to be home soon, and that he was going
to be fine and life, as they knew it, would get back to normal. They stayed holding
each of the other's hand, while with the other they worked on into the night,
until much later the job was done. Then they put Paint in his stall with a
bucket of fresh oats and clean water and went inside to join their mother, exhaustion
having finally set in.
At 3:10 am Lauren's phone buzzed. She
hadn't been asleep, but, instead had been talking to Kali non-stop about how
much she loved her husband and how much he meant to her and how she couldn't
live if something had happened to him, not after what had happened to Jessie,
and what would happen to the girls if their father wasn't there with them...
And on and on. When the phone buzzed, she fumbled once but was able get a hold
it, hands shaking. Kali watched as her friend nodded her heah. Then she smiled,
sighing with relief, covering the phone, "They found him. He's going to be
Ok." On the floor where they had fallen asleep, the girls stirred, coming
awake.
"Mom?" Emma asked, rubbing
her face.
"Dad?" Chrissie said, not
taking her eyes off her mother.
Lauren held up a finger 'one second,'
listened some more and then hung up. "Come here girls," she said as
they crawled quickly across the floor and came to her and were enfolded into
their mother's arms. "They found your dad out on the trail. He's injured,
but he's going to be Ok." She grinned over the heads of her daughters at
Kali who smiled back at her, thinking that it was about time her friend had
something good happen in her life. She obviously cared about her husband and,
hopefully, one day he would reciprocate the feeling.
"What are you going to do now?"
she asked.
"The girls and I are going to
the hospital," Lauren said, standing up, pulling the girls, who were
instantly wide awake, with her. She was happy and excited. "I guess Mike's
been asking for us."
Kali got to her feet, catching
Lauren's energetic mood. "Let's go, then," she said, grabbing her
purse and leading the way to the door. "I'll drive."
Two days
later Mike was home from the hospital recuperating. Lauren had set up a bed for
him on a couch in the family room: a big, open area, with the kitchen at one
end and the living area at the other, separated by the couch Mike was on and an
informal sitting area in between. A double set of sliding glass doors along one
wall let him see the backyard. Before he'd come home the girls had talked
Lauren into going to a local garden store where they'd purchased overflowing
pots of red and pink geraniums, white trailing bacopa, orange and yellow
marigolds and bright blue cascading verbena. They'd carefully placed the pots
on the patio outside the glass doors so Mike could see them. All the colorful flowers lifted his spirits,
which were pretty high anyway. When the sun was shining, like it was this
morning, the family room was the most cheerful place in the house. The open
floor plan made it easy for Mike to see everyone and be a part of the day to
day activities of Lauren, Emma and Chrissie. Which is what he wanted more than
anything.
"I don't want to be away from
any of you ever again," he kept saying, over and over again, both in the
hospital and once he was home, obviously shaken by his experience.
Lauren thought it was sweet for him
to be talking like that; something he hadn't done in the last few years.
Nevertheless, the sentiment was starting lose some of its punch after hearing
it so many times. "Honey, we aren't going anywhere, are we girls?"
Lauren had told him time and time again, hoping he'd eventually believe her.
"No, dad, never," Chrissie
would say to him, rushing to give him a hug.
Emma was by nature somewhat reticent
but still thankful her father had returned from his accident safe and
relatively unscathed. His tibia had a hairline fracture and he'd strained some
tendons. The puncture in his back only did muscle damage and would heal nicely.
She had appointed herself entertainment coordinator and had been enjoying some
much needed 'quality' time with her dad. They had been playing cribbage almost
non-stop since his return, chatting and laughing like old times.
There was a definite change in him, that was
for sure. A change for the better as far as Lauren was concerned.
"I love how nice the walls look
in here," Mike remarked. It was his first morning back home and it was as if he was seeing the
color of the room for the first time. He had slept well the night before, felt
rested and ready to put the 'ordeal' as he put it, behind him. "What would
you say, Lori, light green?"
Lauren smiled at him calling her
'Lori', a term of endearment he hadn't used since Jessie had died. "Don't
you remember?" she chided him. "It's sea-green. We picked it out last
year."
Mike shook his head, grinning.
"I've been kind of in a fog for some time, now, haven't I?"
That's certainly an understatement,
Lauren said to herself. Try over four years. But she kept her thought to
herself, preferring instead to enjoy the novelty of having her husband more
like himself than he'd been since Jessie had passed away. "We've all been
trying to deal with Jessie's death in our own ways," she told him.
"But you've been doing such a
good job holding things together," he countered. "The girls are doing
great," he shook his head, chagrined. "I haven't been much help, have
I? I'm going to try to do better, starting right now." As if to prove the
statement he made a move to get up and suddenly grimaced. The pain still
evident. "Well, maybe I'll take a rain check," he groaned lying back
down.
Lauren smiled to herself. She had
been sitting in an easy chair next to him, keeping him company, having a cup of
tea and glancing through a home improvement magazine. She was enjoying the
homey sensation of starting to feel like a complete family again, and, even
though it only had been a couple of days, she was daring to let herself think
that maybe their situation had turned around and that Mike would become more of
the man she needed him to be: more involved in raising the girls and more of a
husband who helped rather than hindered around the house. She allowed herself
to hope Mike really was changing and that it would be for the better and that
it would last. She set her magazine down, stood up, came over and sat on the
couch and ran her fingers through her husband's hair. It was thinning, had been
ever since Jessie's death, but the intimate gesture felt good to her.
Mike responded, looking into her
eyes. He took hold of her hand and kissed it, "I love you so much. I don't
know what I'd do without you."
Lauren smiled and lay her head on
his chest. She could feel his heart beating. She felt the warmth of his body.
Suddenly, all of the chores she had planned: getting the laundry going, dusting
and sweeping the first floor, and vacuuming the upstairs, didn't seemed so
critical anymore. She stretched out next to him. "I'm not going
anywhere."
Mike sighed and smiled, looking up
at the vaulted ceiling with it's rough beams giving him a sense of security. He
felt relaxed and was happy to be spending time with his wife. He put his left
arm around her shoulder and kissed the top of her head, "I was
wondering...have you ever thought getting a horse? Lately I've been thinking it
would be nice for us to go riding out on the trail. You know, do something fun
together," he ran his fingers through her hair.
Lauren laughed, thinking he was
wondering about something else. She reordered her thoughts. "Funny, I've
been thinking the same thing, you know, about getting a horse." She
briefly told him about the little mare Butterscotch. When she was done she
asked what he thought. Mike nodded in approval. Before he could say anything,
though, she asked, "Where'd you get your idea?"
"I've been thinking about it
for a while, but it really started coming to me when I was out on the Lucie
Line waiting for help." Then he stopped and slapped his forehead.
"God, I forgot to ask you. What about Jacob? Jake? Where is he? What's
happened to him?"
Lauren sat up, perplexed,
"Jake? What in the world are you talking about?"
"Jake. The kid who rode Paint
home. Skinny, little guy, but pretty friendly. Resourceful, too. He was the one
who put that bandage on my back."
Lauren smiled at him and went back
to her chair and her tea and magazine. She'd heard an automobile drive up and car
doors slamming, the girls getting dropped off from lacrosse practice by Kali. They'd
be coming through the door any second and would probably give their parents no
end of grief about being intimate together on the couch, as good as it had felt.
"There was no Jake, no little kid, no nothing. Just the note you wrote,
stuck in the saddle, telling us where you were. You were probably hallucinating
seeing someone. The doctor said that happens sometimes if you're in a lot of
pain." She opened her magazine and took a sip of her tea, chamomile,
appreciative of its flavor and relaxing effect.
"I never wrote any note. I
couldn't. I was in so much pain I could barely stay conscious, let alone think
to write something. The kid rode off on Paint. I swear he was there."
"Well, I never saw
anyone." A little part of Lauren wondered about what he'd said, though. Could
it have happened? Too bad they'd lost the note in all of the confusion of that
night. Just then Emma and Chrissie bounded into the room and interrupted her
thoughts, their strawberry blond long hair tied back in pony tails, faces
glistening with sweat. They were laughing and joking, obviously in good moods.
Whether it was from practice or having their father home, Lauren couldn't tell.
She hoped it was both. "Girls, did either of you see anyone around Paint
when he came back the other night? You were out at the barn with him. Your dad
thinks there might have been a boy around somewhere."
Emma rolled her eyes, chiding her
dad., "No dad, no one. I think you're making the whole thing up."
Then she smiled a big smile and ran over to the couch and hugged him, putting
that awful night out of her mind. "I'm so glad you're back and are going
to be Ok."
"Me, too," Chrissie added,
plopping on the couch and hugging her dad as well. "Double glad." She
looked at her sister, gave her a high-five, and they both started laughing.
Lauren was amazed how, in just a day,
the girls had suddenly become more relaxed and less tense. It must have to do
with how Mike is behaving, she thought-he's being more attentive and
thoughtful, talking to them, talking to me. It's a start. I hope he keeps it
up.
From Mike's point of view, all he wanted to do
was whatever he could to bring his family back together again. He quickly decided
to put the thought of Jake out of him mind, putting the arguments aside and willing
to accept the kid was only in his imagination. After all, he'd been pretty
banged up and had lost a lot of blood. It made sense that he imagined the boy,
who really, did look a little like Jessie might have looked like if he'd grown
to that age. Stop it! Mike shook his head to get rid of that kind of thinking. He
made a silent vow right then never to let thoughts of what may or may not have
happened on the Lucie Line Trail ever cloud his mind again. It was time to put
the entire experience behind him. All he
cared about right now was his family and being home and safe with them.
He turned to his daughters, "Hey
girls," he said, giving Lauren a wink, "Your mom and I have been
talking. What do you think about us all getting another horse?" And he
smiled, then, at the response to such a simple idea when both the girls jumped
up and down and clapped their hands, cheering and joyfully echoing each other,
"Yes!" Mike watched as the girls danced around the room. He grinned a
wide grin and looked over at Lauren who gave him a wink back and an encouraging
smile. She was all on board. "Well, girls," he called out, "Let's
do it then!"
That same
day, when Mike and his family were talking about getting another horse, out on
the Lucie Line Trail, right where Paint had reared up and fallen off the side,
there was a movement in the underbrush. Suddenly a coyote jumped up onto the
trail, paused and looked both ways. In an instant he realized he was all alone.
He relaxed, sat down on his haunches and bit at a tick crawling across the top
of its paw. The coyote was a male in its third year and not yet attached to a
pack. He roamed the woods and fields around the town of Long Lake, every now
and then venturing into the well kept, manicured yards common to the homes in
the area, looking for any inattentive cat or small dog. He was always on the
lookout for food and getting to be a good hunter; rarely did a day pass with
him being hungry. He chomped down the tick and took a survey of the trail and
the woods around it. Then he sniffed, catching the faintest whiff of horse and
human. In his brain the memory came back of the commotion a few nights back
with the truck and all the humans with their lights and all the racket they'd
made. He remembered the encounter with the horse and the human. He had escaped
the horse's hooves and scurried for safety into the brush, but he hadn't run
away. No, instead, he'd circled back across the trail and hidden pressed to the
ground nearby under a thick tangle of grapevine. He'd been curious and had
watched the horse and the human. After waiting for a while he'd seen the little
human come along and a while later him and the horse leave and go down the
trail back toward town and, a while later, he'd seen many humans come around
and the big human get taken away. He'd stayed crouched out of sight after the
big machine had left and the humans had gone until, finally, the night had
become quiet once again. Then he'd come out of his hiding place and gone to
where the big and little human had been with the horse and looked around ,
taking a few minutes to thoroughly sniff the ground. Finally he had relaxed.
The forest returned to normal with the night sounds of the measured hooting of
an owl and the quiet murmurings of frogs and other amphibians in the nearby
swamp. Satisfied all was well, he had left the area and gone on with his
hunting. But now, on this pleasant summer morning with the sun shining brightly
in the sky, curiosity was starting to get the better of him. He put his nose to
the ground and sniffed in the dirt. He picked an aroma, a scent of something
familiar. He turned and looked away from the rising sun, out to the west. There
was the faintest mark in the hard packed surface. Narrower than his paw, the
mark was nearly smooth with little bumps in it. The coyote bent and sniffed
again. It had a faint odor, like the smell on the roads with the fast machines
on them that he so carefully avoided, crossing over only every now and then. There
was the faintest scent of a human, too. Not an old human, but a young one: experience
had taught him the difference. It brought back the memory of the other night
when there had been all of the commotion and the young human had been there. It
was his scent. He thought about following it to see where it went but decided not
to. He knew the dirt trail went away for a long distance, out toward where the
sun would set later that day. Many miles. Today he wanted to stay close to the
woods he called home. He'd picked up a trace scent of a female earlier that
morning, just after sunrise. She was traveling alone, unattached like him.
Maybe they could join up and start hunting together. If she was good, they
could perhaps start a pack of their own. Suddenly his ears caught a sound.
Something was down in the brush on the other side of the trail. A rabbit,
maybe. He crouched and ever so quietly made his way to the edge, sniffing, nose
to the ground. He paused, watching, his eyes quick to catch any movement in
thick undergrowth. His heart beat rapidly, his muscles tensed. He was ready. He made his move and pounced. In an instant he was gone.
